lovers rock ❣︎

006

The drive home was exhausting.

It seemed like the whole world was against me, but it was just Molly and Taissa .

"Thank you, I appreciate it." I mumble jumping out of the car.

This is so stupid, but the only thing helping me to keep my mind off shit, is drugs.

I really shouldn't be smoking anything, or even doing drugs.

Nothing is helping me get through this, but honestly i couldn't give a shit.

Jackie has been on our asses, she wants us to be perfect so "She can have a better life" shes so fucking self centered.

She doesn't give a shit about anyone else but herself, I know she is the team captain and stuff but she needs to shut up sometimes.

I walk into my house, and notice that it is dead silent.

My mom is probably at a meeting and my dad is probably out drinking, or at the meeting with mom.

"Hello? Anyone home?" I yell hoping that someone is home.

"Im home" Natalie says jumping off the stairs, scaring the shit out of me.

I fall back, and look up at her.

"Holy shit dude are you okay?" she says helping me up.

"Yeah im okay, what do you think Natalie I just got jump scared." I say brushing off my hands.

"Why does it smell like weed in here?" I ask sniffing the air.

"Your mom has a weed stash in her closet" Natalie replies walking to the refrigerator "What you got to eat?" she asks.

"Natalie go home" I yell hoping that she will leave.

"But it's too far away" she says grabbing something from the fridge and putting the blunt in her mouth.

"Okay Natalie how did you even come in here?" I ask, as she passes the blunt to me.

"Your dad leaves his window open, i just take off the screen" she answers.

"Nat go home!" I say pushing her to the door. "Fine but come with me I wanna take a walk" she laughs walking outside.

"Fine just let me get something" I say grabbing my bag and pepper spray and walking out.

"Really? Pepper spray you're that scared?" she says fixing her jacket.

"You never know" I laugh passing the blunt back to her.

"Let's go up to my roof, I don't wanna walk." she says climbing onto the roof.

I follow behind trying not to fall and or hurt my knees again.

Once we're finally on the roof I sit next to her taking the blunt. "So.. whats up with that Molly girl?" she asks.

"Old friend, I really dont wanna talk about it." I reply passing it back to her.

"Do you ever feel like you're loosing your mind? Like if you're going crazy and there is nothing to stop it? and like there is no one there to stop you from doing stuff that will get you in trouble." I ask looking at her

It takes her a while to reply, she is high out of her mind. "I mean yeah, thats kind of my thing. Why do you ask?" she says passing the blunt back to me I never gave it back.

"It's just that, lately I have been feeling crazy, I feel everything but feel nothing at the same time, you know?"

"Hey it's okay, everyone feels like this at some point in their life, but i promise you. You will get better, but if you're ever feeling down or just need someone to talk too im right next door dont worry michelle.

My window is always open, just make sure no one sees you come inside, or just beep me." she says pulling me closer to her.

I love having these deep talks with people while being high. It just feels good and it feels so refreshing letting stuff out.

"You're really pretty i hope you know that." Natalie says looking straight into my eyes.

"Cant say the same for you" I say with a little giggle. "Oh screw you it's the last time I say something nice to you." she says punching my shoulder almost making me fall off.

"Ow, you freak you almost made me fall off, i was just joking you are very pretty" I say getting back up.

A car pulls up and it's my mom and dad, I immediately hide the blunt.

"Okay thats my cue to go bye natalie ill see you tomorrow!" I say jumping from Nat's roof to my balcony almost slipping.

"See you tomorrow!" she says climbing down.

Once I climb in I open the door from the balcony that goes straight into my room.

"Destiny?" my mom says as I run downstairs. "Im here! what's wrong?" I ask sitting down at the kitchen table.

"Got your new pill bottles, now you take two of these at night and one in the morning remember that okay?" she says sliding them towards me.

"and, I got a call from your teacher, your grades? And why are you acting up in class? you need to grow up! You need a better future. If you want to become a professional soccer player then you need to stop acting up." my mom yells as my dad just stares at me.

"Why are your eyes red?" my dad says coming towards me.

"just a sad show I was watching very emotional." I say fixing my hair.

"mhmm.. but listen to your mother, shes speaking the truth get your grades up, or else we will be setting a curfew, grow up, I want you to be successful, other than that, how did the game go?" he asks.

"Oh yeah WE ARE GOING TO NATIONALS !" I yell.

"Good job" he says ruffling my hair. My mom just smiles and puts her food plate away.

She never cleaned them before she left.

"Now go to sleep I think that you need to have a better sleep schedule? Am I right?" my mom says cleaning the dishes. "Right away" I say running upstairs. "and grow up!"

I dont wanna grow up.