𝓕𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮| Mizzen x M! Reader

Day two part one: Ryhlee

I woke up earlier than everyone else that morning, it was hard to sleep after yesterday. Today would be my first day without Eliana, after ten years of only knowing her, I would be leaving her in this arena. I would be leaving all of our memories in district twelve, in the capitol zoo, and in the place where hundreds of children have already died. For once in my life, I was glad I had no family, because I think I wouldn't be able to look them in the eye ever again, because they're the reason why I'm standing in this arena mourning over a lost friend. 

I wriggled out from underneath the rubble and sat down near Eliana, I just wanted a place to sit and think without being disturbed. the events of last night were mostly a blur, but I do remember how Mizzen kissed me in front of everyone.  I think the strangest part was that I didn't even care that people had seen me kissing Mizzen, I was just sad that Eliana would never find out about us. "I'm sorry Eliana, I wasn't able to protect you like I should've, and know you're gone because of it. I should've done more to help, I should've had you stay with Mizzen and I, but I didn't because I thought you could be on your own." I put my head in my knees, curling up and taking Eliana's hand that was uncovered due to the breeze. "look at me Eliana, I'm falling apart here. My face is all messed up and all I do to avenge you is cry, I can't even face Otto cause I'm so fucking scared. So. Fucking. Scared!" I yelled, taking the rock next to me and chucking it as far as possible. I didn't care if it attracted attention, I was ready for to fight, especially if it was Otto. I wanted to kill Otto, to make him feel pain and agony, like he had to Eliana. But I would wait, let him get injured before I got to him. 

"Ryhlee? You out here?" I looked up and saw Tanner, who was approaching me "couldn't sleep either?" He asked. "Yep, it's hard to without Eliana being here. I spent ten years of my life following her around like a lost puppy, and now she's gone." I held her hand even tighter, she couldn't feel it anyways. "Do you think she would've liked me if we got to know each other?" Tanner asked, I wondered what I should tell him. "Maybe. Eliana's a good person, she would at least go out with you before rejecting you. I believe you're a good person, but not this version of you." I got up and helped him up as well "thanks Ryhlee" I smiled, "no problem" I went back over and shimmied in next to Mizzen, who was still asleep. I placed myself back on his chest, and he wrapped his arms around me again, mumbling something. I fell asleep quickly, feeling safe with him there, and I felt my knife slowly slip out of my hand as I slept.