Running Through the Dark

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

I was sitting in the passenger seat with Louis driving. El, Danielle, and my rommies were chatting in the back. My leg was shaking with nervousness as We got closer to the apartment. How was everyone going to react? I was gunna have to start all the way back to the night before my 17th birthday, the night I was raped. Thankfully no one noticed my bouncing knees and we made it to our apartment. I quickly climbed out of the car and walked up to the door, only to see that Dus's car was here. I opened the door to see him waiting in the lobby.

"Sorry it took us kinda long to get home," I told him as I interlocked our fingers.

He nodded and we walked over to the elevator. We waited for everyone to pile in. Just after all of us were in, I saw the second car pull in the lot. After a cramped and stuffy ride, the elevator opened into the musty hallway. This didn't offer much more space than the elevator had. After fiddling with the key, I finally got the door open, an everyone filed in, taking seats on our small couch. Kam, Kavya, Emma and I walked into the kitchen to gets snacks. I grabbed a bag of carrots for Louis and a box of crackers for Niall. Along with lots of snacks for everyone to share. By the time we had the table set up with snacks, everyone was here and chatting. We ate for a long tine, still talking. I didn't contribute much to the conversation though. Suddenly I had an impulse if courage and I stood up from my spot on the ground.

"Guys, I feel like I owe you all an explanation. Some of you call me Hannah, some call me Anna. Some of you know I have a shady background, some of you don't, but I feel that as my friends, you all deserve to know."

Everyone turned to stare at me.

"Okay so I wil start from the beginning...

I used to live in Florida with my mom. My dad had died when I was young and I never knew him. My name used to be Hannah. I was really popular at school. I had a lot of people I called friends. But the night before my 17th birthday, I was raped by my ex. He went to jail. But a few weeks later, I found out I was pregnant. I invited my best friend over to my house to tell her everything. She had always had a crush on my ex so she defended him. She made up a lie that we had sex, then because I was pregnant, I said he raped me. She told the whole school and everyone turned against me. My boyfriend of the time broke up with me. That same day he broke up with me, I miscarriaged when I got home. I always thought about killing myself if I was ever left alone in a room or place. If not for my mom I probably would have committed suicide. But then I met Harry. I didn't feel worthless anymore. He made me feel happy again. We dated for basically the whole year, until a party at the end of the year. In the end, My ex best friend kissed Harry, I didn't see him pull away, so I ran. When I got home, I packed my bags, wrote a note to my mom and one to Harry, and I drove, as far as I could, leaving Florida behind. I had made it all the way to Texas when I checked into a motel. That night was horrible. The man would only give me a room if I made him happy. I needed a place to stay so I agreed. While we were.. you know... I felt like shit again. And this time I really debated wether or not I should kill myself, right there in the hotel room. The next day, I kept driving and made my way to Cali. The first thing I did was dye my hair from the original bleache blonde, to dark brown. Next I got tattoos and piercings. I also changed my name to Anna instead of Hannah, hence the tattoo on my hip. I started my new life in Cali. when I got a job at the Phoenix nightclub. I don't make very much money, but I did learn how to get big tips. Then last week I met a gay guy at the club. We went out for Starbucks when I met Dus in the store. Then on our first date, I met..... One Direction at The Viper Room. Okay so now I'm pretty sure everyone is up to date.... right?"

No one responded. Emma Kavya Kameron Perrie and Danielle just stared at me in shock. The boys just looked at me with sympathetic looks. They all had heard the story before, but the ending was new. Harry looked at me with guilt clear in his eyes. Then I saw Dus, standing next to Harry. Dus's face was blank, I couldn't tell how he was feeling. I looked back to Harry, I could see tears threatening o spill.

"Harry, it isn't your fault. It was Alice's. I left because of what happened before you." I said, walking up to him.

He shook his head and stood up from the couch. He stormed out of the apartment, I tried to go after him, but Louis ran out after him. Tears were falling down my face now. Dus hugged my from behind. He placed a sweet kiss to my cheek and whispered,

"It's okay, Baby. You are safe now. I will protect you from Harry."

With this, I ripped his arms from my waist.

"Dus! It isn't Harry's fault. How could you say that?"

My brows furrowed an my chest was rising and falling faster than usual

"What? Anna? How can you say that it isn't his fault? He kissed another girl while you guys were dating!"

My face was contorted into a stern frown.

"Get out. Dustin just leave."

"Anna, I...I'm sorry...."

"I said GET OUT!" I yelled, pointing to the door.

He glanced around the room before storming out. I broke down in tears as My roommates surrounded me, comforting me and hugging me. I cried into their arms. Niall stood up with a worried look on his face.

"Boys, we really need to go. Harry locked himself in his room again. Louis is afraid that he's doing it again." The boys all stood up with him. "He was doing so well," Niall added shaking his head.

The boys left with Dani, El, and Perrie. I sat there, still wrapped in the comfort of my friends arms thinking. What is Harry doing? Why did he do it in the first place? But I know the answer to that one... me. I told them I was gunna go get ready for bed, but that was a lie. I walked to the bathroom and frantically looked through all of the drawers. Finally I found what I was looking for. I sat on the tiled floor and placed the shiny blade on my wrist. I pushed down into my skin. The cut wasn't deep, but it was the first of many. I cut one for getting raped and one for miscarriaging. I cut again for Alice stealing my life from me, and for stealing my boyfriend. I cut myself again, for giving Alice the chance to make a move on Harry. I sli the blade across my wrist again for leaving Harry, and one for leaving my mom. Then I cut for causing Harry to do whatever it is he's doing again. The again for loosing Dus. My vision was fuzzy and black. After a minute, my vision came back and I slid the blade across one more time for still loving Harry Styles. I had deep cuts running up my right arm. My arm was losing so much blood, that my arm was going cold and numb. I barely remember Kavya walking in and screaming before I was enveloped in total darkness.

AUTHORS NOTE

Thank you so much for all of the reads and the 2 comments!!!! So In order to have the next chapter, I need 3 more comments and 1 vote. Just so u all know, cutting is a very serious act and I dont mean it as a joke or anything in my story. Seriously if anyone wants to talk, you can private message me.

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