Call me // hyunlix

Chapter thirteen

Chapter thirteen (ED WARNING) ‼️

Hyunjins pov

For the next few days we all decided to stay low at home and just chill. With a house like this there wasn't much we could get bored with.

Eating breakfast all around the table I watch as Felix struggles to eat what's in front of him. He hasn't had a flare up of his eating disorder in a while. I place my hand on his back and glance at him.

He brings his face up to look at me smiling lightly as he scoops a pile of food off the plate and into his mouth before looking back down.

After we all finish eating Chan and Seungmin clear the table and start doing dishes. The boys pile into the living room turning on video games but I watch as Felix disappears up the stairs.

Following him quietly not wanting him to know I'm behind him he runs to our room and shuts the door. I place my ear to our door waiting for the faint sound of his presence but all I hear is another door shut. I creep into the room as I hear him in the bathroom forcing himself to throw up.

I run into the bathroom and stop as I see him crying over the toilet. Kneeling down to him I snatch him from the cold marble floor and place him into my lap rocking him back and forth.

"Lixxie what were you thinking?" I say quietly not wanting him to think I was patronizing him. I run my hands through his soft blonde swirls. "I'm so-sorry hyunjie" he mutters out "I just know I've been gaining weight being on vacation and couldn't think of anything else" he finishes as he clutches onto my shirt gripping it so hard he could rip it.

"Shhh Lix" I coo into his ear. I place my hand down to pull his face off my chest "you are perfect just the way you are Felix" I say strongly looking deep into his brown eyes.

He looks up at, his bottom lip trembling as his tears continue down his face. I proceed to pick him up and bring him back into our room as I lay him down on our bed. Pulling him under the covers I wrap myself around him squeezing him tightly.

"Hyunjin please don't tell Chan" he pipes out digging his face into my chest out of shame. "Lix I think Chan would want to know" I say still stroking his hair. "no please! He said if it happened again he'd have to tell management and they'd send me to rehab please no" he worriedly said pushing himself off. I grab on harder not letting him budge from our current position "shh baby fine I won't tell Chan" I say softly as his body starts to relax into mine.

"But promise me you won't do this again Lix, I'm serious. One more slip up and you'll force me to tell Chan" I say firmly. Chan should know these things but if he knew about the past time and this time he might be forced to take action and no one would want that. I feel him nod his head in acceptance.

We stayed like this for a bit before I heard his light snores coming from underneath me. I peer down at this beautiful sleeping angel in my arms. How could he not think he's perfect?

Maybe I can show him.

I slowly make my way out from under him and out of the room closing the door slowly so it won't make a sound. I run down the stairs and into my bag and get my sketching materials and paints.

I quietly come back into the room looking in through the crack making sure my angel is still sound asleep. I bring a lounge chair over to the side of the bed. Placing it down softly. I look at him in awe. He is facing towards the huge balcony doors with the sunlight coming through. The sun just kissing his perfect pale skin showing off his freckles once again.

I take out my pens and paper and begin drawing him. His facial profile is my favorite to draw. I've given gifts to the boys before of more abstract versions of my art but Felix is the only one I've given portraits to.