Call me // hyunlix

Chapter twenty nine

Chapter Twenty Nine

Hyunjins POV

Sleeping and waking up next to Felix felt euphoric, I didn't have any nightmares during the night, every time a bad thought would creep into my dream I pushed it out with a memory of Felix. Hearing our alarm go off I hear Felix groan next to me, he gets up and reaches over me throwing the clock on the floor before collapsing back down next to me. I laughed at him, hes so dramatic when hes tired. Shifting under me I feel his hands tracing my lower abs, my breathing stops every time I feel his fingers rub against the top of my boxers.

I try to open my mouth to tell him to stop but nothing comes out, before I know it he slips his hand into my boxers and start rubbing my dick. He looks at me as I roll my head back in pleasure moaning into each stroke he gives me, even if he wasn't touching me to lewdly I'd still love it. Grabbing Felix and throwing him on top of me, his hand never leaving my dick, he sits up on my lap and grinds his hips down into me.

Grabbing his face, I crash his lips into mine. Hungrily I lick his bottom lip, he opens his mouth and lets my tongue take over. Playing a game of war with our tongues. I come up and bite down on his bottom lip, he gasps in pleasure as his strokes become faster and his hips never skipping a beat as he continues rubbing himself into me. I let out moan after moan and before I knew it I shot my cum into his hand, he lets me ride out my high as he bends his neck back in pleasure before releasing himself.

Coming back down from our orgasms he leans over me and places his forehead against mine. "At least you can still moan" he giggles before placing a kitten kiss on my nose and gets up. He goes to clean up and I follow him, showering together we let the warm soapy water consume us. After getting dressed Felix and I made our way back to the bed. Him laying down on my chest as I play with his hair.

It was simple with Felix, he didn't pressure me to try and speak to him, instead he got me to talk in other ways. He handed me his notebook I gave him and I looked up at him with a questionable look. "Tell me what happened, I want to know every detail, don't leave anything out" he says after kissing my forehead. "I'll be right here with you" he whispers best to my head.

I take a deep breathe before bringing the pen down to the paper, writing everything from the start. My panic attacks at night, my nightmares, my fears of Maxi hurting Felix, the voicemail still sitting in my phone from Maxi, and then came the night in the woods. I watch Felixs expression change as he reads over the words I wrote down. His tears coming down on the pages below him, I didn't want to make him sad but he needed to know what I was going through. It was like I was watching him relive the moments all over again.

After he finishes the last page he closes the book, looking up at me he tried to smile through his tears. He brings his hand up to my face and caresses my cheek, "I love you so much Hyunjin, thank you for telling me" he starts off. I can feel myself holding back tears, "you are so strong Hyunjin, I wish one day to be as strong as you" he finishes. I open my mouth to speak back to him but nothing escapes, I mouth the words "I love you too".

He rests his forhead against mine as we breath in each other, pulling away as we hear a knock on the door. Chan enters the room sitting down at the end of the bed he speaks up "everyones downstairs waiting, are you guys ready". Felix and I look at each other before intertwining our hands and nodding back at Chan. They help me make my way to the living room as its filled with the boys and more suits.

Sitting me down on the couch, Felix comes and sits right by my side. Our main manager clears his throat before speaking, "Good morning boys, thank you all for coming over. Hyunjin its nice to see you smiling" I smile back at the comment before he continues "As you know, the press and fans have thought of every scenario after seeing Hyunjin at the airport. We have decided to release to the press what happened with Maxi, not every detail but enough to hopefully hold anymore crazy fans back." We all nod, knowing we can't really lie to our fans.

"Further more we have to deal with Hyunjin and Felix's relationship, its been brought to our attention by all the members that they support you boys together", I feel Felix squeeze my hand almost asking for more reassurance. "But we can not control what the fans will think, there will be hate, there will be threats made, we will try our best to protect ou boys but until things settle down we believe it would best to have security around the dorms at all time". Changbin sighs as the other boys chime in, "why around all of us when its only Felix and Hyunjin that should be protected" Seungmin asks.

"We can't afford to have another Maxi problem, we will be keeping a close eye on all of you" the manager says "contrary to popular beliefs we actually do care about the well being of you boys, more than just being idols but as people as well". All of us smile up at the comment before he continues once more "now I know Hyunjin has not been able to speak since the last incident, that is an issue, we have a speak therapist coming in to talk to you tonight Hyunjin. We are hoping he can help you find your voice again".

I nod my head at the manager before Chan speaks up, "regardless of gaining back your voice right away we seriously just want you to heal Hyunjin". The way he says those words made my heart crack into pieces. I know what a burden this will be as we are trying to push a new album out soon, without me being able to speak let alone sing what will I contribute to the group.

"Yes, obviously Hyunjins voice issue is going to push back the release of the album but we want to make this clear to all of you, we won't be stopping anything going forward. Your fans paid good money to see you guys preform in the next coming weeks and we don't want to let them down" The manager says in the most monotone voice ever. I forgot he was even here since his previous comments made him look to human to me. We all nod in agreence once moe before he says "We will release to the press in this order, first what happened to Hyunjin, secondly the fact we will not be cancelling events, and lastly the relationship. We hope that in this order we will gain sympathy from the fans before giving them the harder news".

I laugh in the back of my mind, yea cuz Felix and I are such a problem for the world. Instead of saying my thoughts out loud which even if I could speak I wouldn't be able to say those words infront of so many suits I just nod my head.

The managers all bow to us before leaving the dorm, we watch as the new security guards stand outside the door. "I know we are suppose to feel safer with them around but why am I nervous" han questions as he looks out the window at the guards. We all laugh at him before I get up from the couch, grabbing my phone I start to type a message.

"I just wanted to say that I am so sorry this is happening, I wouldn't wish this burden upon any of you and just know I am going to try really hard at getting my voice back. Even without a voice and not able to dance I will still be at every performance with you guys. But I also wanted to say how much I love and respect you boys, from day one I could feel this bond forming that not even God himself could take away from us. I am so thankful to have you guys stand by myside as this all happens". I press the speak button on siri and watch as all the boys start tearing up and sniffling at my message. They all jump up and hug Felix and I in a huge bear hug.

"We love you guys too" I.N. says back to us still engaging in the hug. Chan speaks up after we finish our sappy hug session, "alright boys who wants to work on the next album" he ask excitedly clapping his hands together loudly. All the boys jump up and down before heading out the door, I follow close behind before I grab Chans hand. The rest of the group exits the dorm as Chan and I stay back for a moment. I hand him the notebook, giving him a motion to open it to the selected page. I watch him read over the same pages Felix cried over. His expression changes from fear, to concern, to hurt, and then to anger. He pulls me into a hug and whispers in my ear, "Dont worry Hyun, we have you now". Smiling into the hug I think to myself that this is the safest I have felt in a long time. 

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Chapter 30 will be long, I want to make it special so a lot will be happening in it!! I hope you are enjoying the story!!!