Call me // hyunlix

Chapter fifteen

Chapter fifteen

Hyunjins pov

After the movie ends Felix and I decide to start getting ready for our dinner with the others. I run into the bathroom first so Felix doesn't steal all the hot water. Surrounding myself with warm water and steam I sink into the corner. As I sit there, water sprinkling down on me from above my mind takes me back to lunch when Felix lied to changbin.

He ate his food and I didn't let him leave my sight to purge it. He wouldn't have done it in town either he's too nervous the others would catch him. Maybe he's doing better? Maybe all he needed was one relapse.

But why lie?

Felix's pov

I watch as my cute boyfriend sprints to the bathroom occupying it first.

I lay in the bed watching the credits roll to the movie we just finished. As I look down at the table I see the beautiful drawing Hyunjin made. I pick it up and grab my new diary that's right next to it. Bringing my knees to my chest I position myself so I can write and look at the drawing.

He is such a beautiful artist. Is this really how he sees me? I wish I could be like that all the time.

I flutter the book open looking through it as I then turn to the first page. I begin to write my thoughts down.

"Dear diary,

Unless that's too corny to call you that? Anyways I guess I should introduce myself. My name is Felix Yongbok Lee. I will be writing in you for the time being.

Today has been an extremely stressful day. I relapsed. I haven't even thought of my eating disorder since the end of tour. But I was scrolling on TikTok and came across an edit of myself. The fan questioned why I'm not as slim and chiseled as the other members. They are fine with changbin because he's thick with muscles but they compared me to a newly pregnant lady. Like who does that honestly?

It made my mind race, have I been letting myself get too comfortable? It is vacation I shouldn't have to worry about what I eat. But I know once we get back to our regular schedules I'll be back in with our trainer.

It's so stupid I can't believe I let myself slip. I should just be watching what I am eating. I tried counting calories today. Hopefully that will help me and discourage the urge to purge after eating. We are going out to dinner tonight. Maybe I should eat something small before we leave? Maybe I should just say that just like at lunch. I seemed pretty believable.

Ohh Hyunjins almost done in the shower. I must be going.

Thanks you for letting me write in you, I look forward to it."

I end my thoughts as I quickly put the drawing into the book and hide the diary in a drawing of my things. I don't think Hyunjin would find this here.

Hyunjins pov

After my shower I gather my things and make my way back out to the room. I open the door to Felix laying on the bed playing games on his phone. Smiling I grab my clothes and being to change.

I watch as his gaze comes onto my body. I turn to him catching him and he quickly turns around as not to be caught looking. I slowly walk over to him, my hair still wet from the shower. Just in my boxers I climb over him. Turning him onto his back so he's looking up as me. I lean down and shake my hair, watching the water droplets fall onto his face.

I come in closer and begin kissing each spot where the water fell. Making my way all over his face I end on his lips. Kissing him deeply, I peek open my eyes to watch him, he is so hot kissing me. I retreat from the kiss straddling him, and sitting up. "Okay you're turn yongobkie" I say as I bend down one last time kissing him quickly.