And as it all starts from the bottom, i notice some minor changes. I notice the changes that will finalize the end this time.
I feel them go away, taking steps back as i move forward. It will hurt less, i know. The ones I lived for, look at me with disgust and my aching heart takes a breath.
I feel myself to be selfish, for leaving my tiny creatures in a world unknown might just be that.
But I am not capable of standing one more time. So I will stay on the ground, close my eyes, and wait.
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The final steps before death are the most painful of all. Before picking the blade or climbing the stairs, the days before any of that takes place.
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Just Me Ranting
Non-Fictiondon't read it lmao, it just felt calming to post it as a book or whatever. TW if your sorry ass is reading this, mentions of su!c!dal thoughts and self h@rm.
