Even If The World Was Ending

19. Sweet nothings

(Late Update! Enjoy🌚)

When Shubman reached his room, by using his door key he noticed that Ishan wasn't in his bed. He thought that he might be sleeping but then he heard the shower being on.

Shubman silently walked towards the bathroom door and knocked.

"Ishu.. Ishu.. Ishan?" He called out but he didn't receive any reply.

Fear ran through his body. He got worried, but he noticed that the door was unlocked. Slowly he entered the bathroom. He was met with a gush of steam. The shower curtain was closed and the steam was blurring it completely, but he could notice Ishan's figure.

Slowly, Shubman stripped till his underwear, and walked towards the curtain. When he slightly peeked, he saw Ishan just staring in nothing, looking ahead, as the shower was blazing hotwater on his head.

Shubman silently walked behind him.

Ishan, hearing footsteps turned behind in fear, but relaxed when he noticed it was Shubman.

They both looked at each other, dead in the eyes. If it was any other situation, their eyes would wander lustily over their body. But now, they had to address the elephant in the room, without letting lust take over.

"Hey babe.." Shubman said and placed one hand above Ishan's right shoulder, other running in his locks, that were placed flat on his forehead, making it difficult to look into his eyes.

"Hi.." Ishan looked at him, and gave him a sad smile. Shubman wanted to mentally slap himself at his stupidness.

"Kya hua meri jaan?" Shubman asked softly and but Ishan avoided his eyes "Kuch nahi.." he replied, looking down. At that moment, he liked the designs on the tiles more than the questioning eyes of his lover.

Ishan knew, he was foolish. Foolish for possessiveness to take over him. Foolish to feel jealous. He knew, Sara was just Shubman's friend, but at one point, he remembered Shubman expressing having crush on her. He wasn't angry on either of them. Ishan knew, he was getting insecure without any reason.

But one had to understand his point of view as well. When Ishan had started liking Shubman, he didn't realise it until his breakup with Aditi. And when he did, he never came out to anyone as he was unsure, that everyone will be weirded out and will judge him.

He didn't want to lose Shubman as his best friend. He always hid his feelings thinking Shubman would never feel the same and that he'll just have to survive as a one sided lover.

Even when Shubman expressed his feelings for someone, Ishan's heart broke. He knew that lucky person was not himself yet hid his heart break and bravely supported his friend.

And when, during their drunken haze, Shubman almost confessed, Ishan still doubted and blamed the drinks for Shubman's behaviour and lust.

But Shubman with another man, fucked up his mind. Anger and possessiveness got the best of him and when he confessed to Shubman. What shocked him was Shubman actually loved him the same way.

Not as teammates, not as best friends, not as platonic soulmates. But actually loved him.

As he was lost in his thoughts, Shubman placed a hand on his chin and lift Ishan's face. He was met with the similar brown eyes, just that it was filled with hurt this time unlike other times, when it only shone with love and adoration for Shubman.

"Ishu.. I'm sorry. I was so lost in talking to Sara that I didn't realise-I didn't spending time with you. But believe me, I had no intention of hurting you. Sara is nothing more than just a friend. Yes, at a point I did like her, but it was a foolish crush. I realised that I liked her, just because she was Sachin Sir's daughter. And it was never romantic" Shubman said and placed his right hand flat against Ishan's soft cheek, cradling it.