Laughing with Sadness

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Sometimes it makes me sad,
It makes me sad to know,
How it was just a game for one,
Fun for another,
Casual behavior for some,
And how for some I was a person
Who could just provide someone something.

Sometimes it makes me laugh,
Thinking how I tried to build myself
Like a mastermind,
And they all made me the fool
They were playing with.
They made me sound like an object to use for.

It hurts, I want to curse them,
But it's like the numbness of years
Had been engraved within me,
Like I can't even react.
Oh, what should I tell you?
That you hurt me?
Would you listen?
Or just blame me?

How could I even tell,
After all, I was the one
Who was a pathological people pleaser?
I was the one who was afraid to lose!

Oh, it's so sad and pathetic to think,
But that's how it is,
As if I'm laughing with my sadness.

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