What if... snowbaird

The start of something new

After last weeks song, I couldn't stop thinking about him. It was as if he was a part of me, as if he was a decease I was infencted by. I tried to sleep during the day because when the moon would show, all the memories would torment my thoughts. I started to develop nightmares, this time they were different than from the games, they were about him.  Every night was different, it was always a new thought of what could've happened. I started to dream about our life toghether but they would always end the same way. 

I would be running away from him in the woods, he has this horrifing look on his face, he looked evil, just pure evil. He would find me and for a moment we would look at each other with desire of something more, even after everything, I still wanted him, I wanted him in me. But that was only for some seconds, after he would just look at me like he was gonna kill me, he would point the gun at me and then I would wake up.

I have never made it through the whole dream, I always wake up at that moment. I suppose it's 'cause I don't want to accept he has actually changed, he actually left me, he has become what I feared the most. I continuned my day and tried to ignore the event that had heppened during the night. 

As I started to cook my breakfast I realised how lonely I was, I was alone in the woods and I was trying to find a way to survive while I found the way to myself. I knew I would never be the same as I was before Coriolanus, he had changed me, he had taken things from me that I would never be able to get back. It didn't take me long to realise he was also taking my charm, he was taking my colors, he was taking me. I didn't want him to win, I started to gather up the rest of my strength and I tried to remind myself who I really was. He was never gona win this battle, not on my watch.

As the day passed, I started to enjoy the peace and quiet even more, all until one day. "look, there are fresh footprints all over the place!" It was a peacekeeper, they were searching for me. I froze as I started to hear how they called my name out loud. "Lucy Gray! come out wherever you are!" I started to panic and my instincts told me to hide in the cabin. "Lucy Gray! We have orders from the capitol! They want you there." I froze even more, They want me there?  I couldn't understrand why would they want me there, I didn't know if it was a trap, or if they really wanted to bring me to the capitol. 

After some seconds, I heard the door of the cabin open. I knew they were gonna take me not matter what I would say or do. "Lucy Gray?" A soft voice was calling me, I decided it would be best for me to come out on my own than for them to carry me out. "Yes?" I replied, "Why are you here?" I started to ask questions as I came out to meet whoever was calling my name. "President Snow has sent us on a mission to find you, he wants you in the capitol." I froze, I felt chills all over my body. "President?" I replied, "Yes, President Snow wants you in the capitol and it's our job to serve him and every single one of his pleasures." 

He's president, My Coriolanus, My Coryo has become the president of Panem and has sent out peacekeepers to kill me, I thought. "Are you okay?" the nice peacekeeper asked me, "Yes", I gave him a brief response that neither of us belived. He then proceded to scort me out and walked me to the black van. I was scared and confused on what was going on, Why had he sent a nice peacekeeper to find me? And did he actually wanted to kill me or was something else going on. 

As we arrived to the capitol, I couldn't help to feel nostalgic in a way I had never felt before. I then saw a huge poster promoting the 11th Annual Hunger Games. I got the biggest deja vu of my whole life and started to remember everything about Coriolanus. Even after all of this I couldn't get to get him out of my mid. I felt him everywhere, he was in the silence, I could see him even with the light out, He was there even if he wasn't. 

After some hours the car stopped and a man opened my door, the led me up the stairs and showed me my room. It had a closet filled with amaizing dresses and shoes, My dressing table was stocked with tons of amaizing make up, and my bed was a Queen siezed bed with a light cream mattress and some very light blue sheets. My walls had posters with lyrics of my songs and there were butterflies sticked to the frames of the paintings of forests and lakes. It was all beautiful as if they had made it scpecially for me with the help of someone who actually knew me. 

It was already very late so I changed into my pjs and decided to call it a night. It was the most peaceful night sleep I have gotten in so long. I woke up in the morning by the sound of someone knocking on my door, I opened the door and it was a young maid, she was about my age, I felt sorry for her but before I had the chance to even say something she left me my breakfast and left.

She had brought me a steward with scrambled eggs, toasts and of course a white rose, next to the rose there was a note,

'Cause I know you enjoy eating those,

Coriolanus

I couldn't belive it, I was confused about what I was feeling. For some reason I was happy he had sent me something and it felt like he cared, it felt like he paid attention to every detail I had told him about my past. 

Before I was even able to start eating my breakfast, the door opened. It was him, He was there. We looked at eachother for what felt like forever. He jumped out to hug me, "I'm sorry" he looked at me and started to stoke my hair. I was speech less, He started to break in my arms and couldn't stop apologising. I had never been so confused but I knew I couldn't let go just yet, he needed me and I needed him.

Authors Note:

Hiiii, I'm sorry for not posting, I've been busy with gymastics practice (it's meet season). please feel free to leave comments and tips! I want to read your suggestions and theories of what you think is gonna happen next, I'm already working on the next chapter I plan to have it out by night time(peru time) tomorrow.