What if... snowbaird

Say Don't Go

When I woke up, he wasn't next to me which sent me off into alert mode. Was I doing the right thing by trusting him? Was everything that had happened only for him to get me to trust him? Was he gonna betray me? I knew what he was capable of so I went straight to the worst idea that came to my mind. He is going to kill me. I couldn't stop thinking about that until I heard the door open quietly, when I turned to see who was there, I saw him. "Coriolanus, what is all this?" He had brought our breakfast to bed on his own, It didn't seem like much at the start but then I realise he has probably never even carried a plate.

"I brought you breakfast, we said no more lying so... I did have some help to make it and to bring it upstairs without fucking everything up, but I tried my best to bring it to our bed." He said in a nervous and funny tone. "Well, in that case, thank you for your effort, Mr.Snow." I couldn't stop talking with a flirty accent even though it was 8 in the morning. As soon as I said that I could see him blush, why did my taste in men had to be so crappy, I don't know if my paranoia will ever leave when I'm with this man and well with Billy Toupe, he cheated on me with the mayors daughter and then let her send me to the hunger games to die, of course he didn't achieve that.

When he heard the way I had just called him he didn't just blushed. He moved the plates from the bed and put them in the nightstand and then proceeded to lay me down, being careful not to break me. "I like it when you call me that." I knew he liked it, he felt powerful, he felt unachievable. "Let's go out tonight together," I couldn't help but speak to him like that when we were in that kind of mood. As he leaned in to kiss me, I pulled away. I was searching for him to achieve his limit when I ignored the affection he was giving me. "What are you doing? I thought you liked it that way." he was taking to me with a confused and angry tone, however he was controlling his bad thoughts in a very dominant way. "I would really like to finish my breakfast to be able to get some energy, if you know what I mean..." I said as my gaze met his eyes, he had such big beautiful blue ocean eyes, I had never seen anyone like him, he was beautiful, as if he was made by the gods themselves. "Your eyes," he said while holding onto my hands and staring into my soul, "I had never noticed them this light and shiny before, their usually a darker brown but right now, it's as if they have changed color." He was talking to me with a soft and whispery voice, I loved it when he talked that way, there was something so sexy about it, I couldn't handle myself not to kiss him. "That thing with my eyes, I think it's called lighting." I said as I cackled. "I love you, Lucy Gray, I will do everything in my power to protect you, and remember, we are written in the stars." He said as he whispered into my ear, as he spoke, I could feel the hairs in my neck sticking up and sending chills all over my body, it was as if every nerve in me could feel the warmth of his breath and the softness of his voice travel down my body. "I love you too, Coriolanus Snow." I said whispering into his lips and them pressing them against mine. After a couple of minutes he pulled away. "It's time for me to go." He was still whispering into my mouth and caressing my head with one hand while the other remained on my hips. "Stay, for me c'mon, just a little more time." I whispered back in attempts of trying to convince him to stay, even though I still knew he was gonna have to leave. "I have to go, I'm sorry, I love you, don't forget about that." He said with a little louder and clear voice tone. "I won't forget, I promise." As he got out of bed and let me finish my breakfast, this time for real, he started to get dressed for the public, for Panem.

As he was getting dressed, I couldn't keep my eyes off of him and how beautiful his body was. "What is it?" he asked me, "Huh?" I said back, I didn't know why he was asking me that. "You're staring at me, did I put my shirt on the wrong way?" As soon as he said that my cheeks turned crimson and he noticed it. I wanted to burry myself in the bed, He had noticed me staring at him like an obsessed teenage girl, I mean, I am an obsessed teenage girl but now he actually knows that. He looked at me one last time and chuckled, "I love you, Lucy Gray." he was reassuring me this was real. "I love you too, Coriolanus Snow." I said as he closed the door. I got out of bed and grabbed the dress I was gonna wear for today. This day was supposed to be simple and calm, at least for me. My return to the capitol would be completely public on Friday night, at Luke "lucky" Flickerman's show. But today, I was just supposed to rest.

I finished changing and headed straight into my music room, I had remembered the piece that I had left "unfinished" back in the cabin, I knew I could dedicate today into finishing the piece, I was back with my love and things seemed to be perfect. I arrived to the room and headed straight to the guitar, as soon as I grabbed it I started to tune cord by cord into a perfect pitch. I started to hum as I played the chords that I had previously arranged for that song. It needed a start, the verse I had written wasn't the start of the song, it needed to tell the story in a correct way. I started to remember how my last show went like, that was the day I decided I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life, he had gone to see me sing knowing what was gonna happen if people found out about us, about what we had. As I strummed my guitar, I started to come up with the perfect lyrics.

One look, Dark room
Meant just, for you
Time moved to fast, but you play it back
Buttons on a coat, light hearted jokes
No proof, not much
But you saw enough
Small talk, he drives
Coffee at midnight
The light reflects, the chain on your neck
He says, "look up"
And your shoulders brush
No proof, one touch
But you felt enough

As I sang, I couldn't help but to cry, but they weren't sad tears, I was crying because of how much I loved Coriolanus, I realised I would never be able to leave without him. The love that we have can be sensed everywhere, whenever I touch him, I feel sparks fly in between us. He is my holy ground, he keeps me safe and sound. I continued to strum my guitar and suddenly I had the lyrics for the chorus.

You can hear it in the silence, silence, you
You can feel it on the way home, way home, you
You can see it with the lights out, lights out
You are in love, true love
You are in love

I continued the song and kept singing as if I knew what to say next, it was as if it was already written in me, I just had to say it.

Morning, his place
Burnt toast, Sunday
You keep his shirt
He keeps his word
And for once, you let go
Of your fears and your ghosts
One step, not much
But it said enough
You kiss on sidewalks
You fight and you talk
One night he wakes
Strange look on his face
Pauses, then says
You're my best friend
And you knew what it was
He is in love

I quickly wrote everything down in my songbook and decided to call it a day. By this point I was already shedding love tears everywhere, my songbook pages had gotten wet and stained with tears and my guitar had some watery stains because of how much I was crying. This was the first time I had ever cried while writing a love song, I was really confused on why, but the remembered the guy I was dating. In this world filled with boys, he was my gentleman.

AUTHORS NOTE:

Guysss, im sooo sorry for disappearing like this, I was supposed to get this out on Tuesday morning but I couldn't get myself to finish the chapter, its already super late on where i leave so I will have to call it a night but i promise i will publish the next chapter ASAP. Love u guyssss hope you had a wonderful weekend.