Helpless (Solangelo fic)

Truth

"You two scare me."
"Good, we plan to do that every day."
"Oh no.....it's three, WHAT DID YOU TWO DO?!"
"William Andrew Solace be prepared, you are about to get a boyfriend or get murdered." Lou said patting him on the back.
"WHAT?! WHAT DID YOU DO?!"
"Well he might get murdered a bit later."
"THE FUCK DID YOU DO?!"
"Sweet, innocent-"
"-That's a lie."
"True, annoying, stubborn Will. We have convinced Piper McLean, head of cabin 10 to give you romantic advice."
"You need it desperately."
"Fuck you."
"No thanks, save that for Nico." The Apollo boy went bright red,
"Oh shut the actual fuck up Cecil."
"No thanks I'll pass."
"Don't lie William you know you want to."
"Why am I friends with you two?"
"You'll be thanking us when instead of pining over Nico you're fucking him."
"How the fuck do you know I like Nico?"
"You're obvious as fuck Will, you call him Death boy for Zeus's sake."
"I hate you so much."
"You love us, honestly."
"I really don't."
"Yeah that's right he loves di Angelo."
"Gods save me."
"No one can save you now Solace, who's got you head over heels." Piper said walking up behind them and hitting him on the shoulder.
"Hey Pipes, please work your magic. He's hopeless."
"Don't worry Elle, who's the victim?"
"It's-" Lou Ellen covered his mouth,
"He needs to say it himself for it to work."
"For what to work exactly?"
"Nothing; go on tell her."
"What did you do?!"
"Shhhh, hurry up and tell her who you're hopelessly simping over."
"Gods save me."
"Tell me who you like." Piper charmspoke,
"Nico di Angelo."
"And the spell is done, thanks for the help Pipes."
"No problem, neither of them can lie right?"
"What the fuck did you do?!"
"Nothing William, I'll let you and Piper talk." Cecil said dragging Lou Ellen off with him.
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"So, di Angelo."
"I'm hopeless aren't I?"
"I mean there's still hope, you just need to not mess up."
"I'm not good at that."
"Luckily for you there's motivation."
"What?"
"You can't lie until you and Nico kiss."
"WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!"
"Calm down, what are you hiding anyways Solace."
"When I heal people I feel all their pain, I almost killed myself, I'm useless, I'm hopelessly in love with someone who is halfway to death, I glow in the dark, I'm only alive on necter and ambrosia, I would kill every single Demeter kid right now if I could, I pass out really often but I can feel it before hand so I hide in my office when it's about to happen so no one knows. Fuck. Shit." Will ran towards the forest with tears in his eyes but Piper ran after him,
"Wait." Piper charmspoke when they were in the middle of the forest, it was dangerous but neither of them cared in that moment.
"Oh fuck you, leave me alone."
"Will-"
"If you tell anybody a word of what I said I swear to Apollo I will rip you apart limb for limb McLean." Piper shivered, Will couldn't lie...
"Breathe. In and out, I'm going to unpack a bit of what you said alright? If it's too much tell and I'll stop." Will just nodded barely breathing as Piper sat down beside him, "You feel everyone's pain when you heal them?"
"It's a trade off, if people knew they wouldn't let me heal everyone."
"Doesn't that mean you're almost constantly in pain?"
"It's worth it."
"What do you feel right now?"
"Broken rib, last time I healed Nico. I mean I feel other things from a week ago but they all would have healed a bit by now so it's not as bad. I've been on painkillers anyways, practically high on them at this point."
"That's-"
"-not heathly, I'm fully aware but I don't give two fucks."
"Alright, you tried to kill yourself? Why? Are you alright?"
"After the Manhattan battle, Michael and Lee... I was on the bridge but I met someone there. We convinced each other to not jump, I realised I couldn't leave Kay and Austin alone. They lost two older brothers in the war, they wouldn't be losing a third. I still sometimes wish I'd done it, but they can't be alone."
"Will, show me your wrists."
"No, fuck off."
"Will-"
"Don't act like you fucking care, leave me alone."
"Will, I care. I just want to make sure you're okay, don't make me charmspeak you."
"Fine." Will muttered in tears, rolling up the sleeves of his hoodie. His arms were covered in shallow, red, cuts, Piper counted 14 on one arm and 17 on the other. She pulled the crying boy into a hug,
"I'm here for you."
"I feel so useless, I've never been on a quest, I can barely fight, I'm not half as good of a healer as Micheal was. Everyone would be better off without me, the Demeter kids agree."
"Never say that again okay? Almost all of camp would be dead without you."
"I couldn't save them, it's my fault."
"You still saved all those people; you didn't kill anyone Will."
"I didn't help them either, it's my fault they died."
"No it's not, you tried to save them."
"But I didn't."
"You can't save everyone, some people are too close to dying."
"I should have saved them."
"It's impossible to save everyone, some people are too close to death."
"Micheal could have done it."
"People die Will, death is a part of existence. You can't delay every death, it's not your fault."
"It's the only good thing about me, healing people. If I can't do that well enough what's the point of me living?"
"William Andrew Solace listen to me, you can't save everyone. Even then you're worth more than your power, clearly considering I've had twelve people come to me asking how to make you like them. You're cool, funny, loyal, ridiculously smart as in smarter than half the Athena cabin, and you actually genuinely care about everyone."
"It's just, when they die on my watch. I feel like I killed them." A few second's of silence passed,
"When was the last time you cut?" Piper asked with caution not trying to upset Will any more then he already was.
"Two days ago, when I thought Nico might not make it. The thought of him dying, fuck." A tear rolled down his face and he pulled away from the daughter of Aphrodite.
"I'm going to find you a therapist okay? Do you think that'll help?"
"Yes, but I'm too scared to open up to people. Fucking curse, I really want to punch Lou Ellen right now."
"I'll find someone that can help."
"Thank you."
"Do you want to talk more or is it too much?"
"Too much."
"Alright, just one thing."
"Yeah?"
"Nico's halfway to death?"
"Yes, I want to lock him in the infirmary because I don't know how much longer he'll last with the amount he's eating and drinking."
"Shit."
"Weren't you meant to be giving me advice on how I can get him to like me?" Trying to change the topic, he wasn't exactly meant to be telling people this stuff.
"Oh rightttt that's what I was meant to be doing."
"I'm slightly more hopeful then I was a week ago, at least now I know he's gay."
"Who told you?" Piper asked reaching for her dagger,
"Nico...? We were playing twenty questions and I asked him if he was straight."
"Ohhh okay, so I don't need to kill anyone."
"I don't think so...?"
"Great, so Nico di Angelo, son of Hades. I think... show him you care but don't worry about him too much, honestly just be normal with him, he doesn't get that from most people. The most important thing, give him space but don't let him push you away, he does that a lot."
"Thanks McLean."
"It's my job." Piper said, messing up his hair.
"You said twelve people came to you trying to date me, who exactly were they?"
"Well it's meant to be confidential, but one of them was Leo when he first met you. Don't tell him told you, he will kill me."
"Leo Valdez? That's unexpected."
"The more you know Solace, the more you know. Anyways I should probably go, me and Annabeth are dying Percy's hair red."
"What?!"
"He's the little mermaid so naturally we're kidnapping him and dying his hair red."
"Well I wish you luck and I can't wait to see red-head Percy."
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