Helpless (Solangelo fic)

Bianca di Angelo

"Nico, I got you some food." Will said softly, opening the door. He had fallen asleep and Will decided to not wake him, it was probably better that he got some rest. He put the plate of food on the table and started to clean up. It was the only actual separate room in the infirmity, the other rooms were split with curtains so he thought Nico would prefer this. He wanted to talk to him, tell him that he wasn't alone, that everything would be okay. At the same time Nico didn't seem to keen on the idea, he wanted to help him but he knew he couldn't if Nico wouldn't accept help. He glanced at the raven haired boy, even in his sleep he wasn't relaxed. He screamed, nightmares. He shook the boy,
"Don't...hurt...her"
"Nico wake up, you're having a nightmare"
"Kill me."
"Neeks!" Nico shot up, crying. "You're okay, it was a nightmare." Will sat down on the bed, "Can I touch you?" he nodded, Will pulled the Ghost King towards himself and stroked his hair.
"Bea...Haze..the.."
"Shh, you're okay, it's not real." Nico sobbed into his shirt, "Do you want to talk about it?" Nico shook his head, Will started to sing softly. "A broken heart is all that's left, I'm still fixing all the cracks. Lost a couple of pieces when, I carried it carried it carried it home. I'm afraid of all I am, my mind feels like a foreign land. Silence ringing inside my head, please carry me, carry me, carry me home. I've spent all of the love I saved, we were always a losing game. Small town boy in a big arcade I got addicted to a losing game. Neeks are you alright?
"Better, thank you for singing."
"Here to help, how often do you get them?"
"Every night I'm not passed out and sometimes even then, just, this one was worse."
"Do you want to talk now, or do you not want to tell me?" he shook his head,
"What time is it?"
"Eight thirty at night, you fell asleep around two or three I'm pretty sure."
"W-Will, can I tell you something?"
"Anything at all Neeks."
"Bianca... I talked to her one last time on my fourteenth birthday, let just say it didn't go well." Tears fell down Nico's face,"She was getting re-born that day so I wanted to talk to her one last time, and I told her that I'm...yeah." He was crying but continued, "She said that I'm a disgrace, told me she wishes me death and that I would suffer in the fields of punishment. I thought she cared but my own sister, the one who had been with me my whole life, the person I looked up to for so many years called me a fag. I could see the disgust in her eyes, she would have killed me right then but she was a ghost. I had been planning to tell her for years, but we only talked two or three times a year. I knew there was a chance she would react like that but...I guess I just... thought... she... cared." He fully broke down, leaning into the blonde boy. Holding onto him as though someone was physically pulling him away, Will hugged him tightly.
"I know you've gone through a lot, but I care. If you ever need help or want to talk or anything I'll be here."
"Thank you." Nico responded still shaking,
"If you want I can give you something for a dreamless sleep?"
"You can do that?!"
"I can but doing it too oftens dangerous."
"Please just do it."
"'Kay, hang on a sec Neeks." Will went to grab a needle out of a drawer, once Nico spotted it he took a deep breath and muttered something in Italian too quiet for Will to hear. "Just a warning it's going to knock you out pretty quickly."
"Alright." Will took his arm, wiping it with disinfectant and pushing the needle in his arm. By the time Will had put the few things away, Nico was already ninety percent asleep. Will picked him him up and layed him on the bed, he wa snoring softly when Will walked out of the infirmary.
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