STAY THE NIGHT || Charles Leclerc

FORTY NINE

Mia,

Charles and I kissed last night.

Writing it down makes it seem so much more real. It almost feels unreal in a way.

It was at Sam Smith's concert, which makes the moment so much more memorable. The whole day had been amazing, we'd met with Sam before the show. It was an absolute privilege to sit down and be able to talk with them, someone who I've adored for so long. I told him all about you too Mia, don't worry. To be honest, you're part of the reason Charles kissed me.

It happened right at the end of Sam's show. They dedicated the final song to you Mia, your favorite song too. It was a beautiful song to close out the show to. Once it had finished, and Sam had left the stage, Charles turned to me. I was still listening, the speakers were playing Say It First quietly as the crowd slowly began to disperse. Charles had asked me about a conversation we'd had earlier in the day - I'd mentioned that Sam was one of my idols, and Charles wanted to know who else was on my list.

I didn't hesitate to say him.

I'd always kind of assumed that Charles knew he was one of my idols, but he was pretty shocked when I told him. I told him every reason why I classified him as one of my idols. And, in that moment, I realized that they were not just why I saw him as an idol, but every reason why I loved him. In that moment, I truly realized that Charles was more than just a friend to me. I love him.

He said that my description of him was "the most beautiful thing anybody's ever said to me", and that he needed to do this, otherwise he was going to go insane. And that was when he kissed me.

I never thought I'd be writing this to you Mia, but he's a damn good kisser. I wouldn't mind another one right now, but he's already on the other side of the world in Canada for the race this weekend.

Where do we go from here, Mia? We barely got a chance to talk to each other before he left for his flight. Jack had picked us up after the concert so we didn't mention anything then, and his flight was early this morning so he'd left me a note rather than wake me up early. It's almost like I'd dreamed the whole thing, but I know it was real. It'll be almost two weeks before I see him again though, he's in America for a few days for a campaign, then a few days at the factory in Maranello before he comes back here for the British Grand Prix.

That kiss felt so right, but is it wrong? He's my best friend Mia, but I love him. But what if it doesn't work out? I'll lose my best friend of seventeen years, and I can't do that. I already lost you, Mia, I can't lose Charles too. God, I miss you, Mia. I wish you were here all the time, I miss you so much. You would've known exactly what to say, what to do.

I need to speak to Charles, but this isn't a conversation to have over the phone. I'll just have to wait until Silverstone...

Always and forever, Mia.

Olly x