Still here(2nd part to I'm Kidnapped and I think I like it)

Still Here Chapter 17

Hey I know finally uploading but i have to say it didn't take as long as last time.

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"What happened to 'I'm not gonna have sex until I find someone I love'." She says trying to mimic me. "Or the truce we made about us telling each other about our first time?"

"I stuck to it!" I retort to fast.

"You're in love?" She asks wide eyed.

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"You're in love?" She asks wide eyed.

"What?" I ask confused about her question.

"Well I said that you didn't stick to your deal about telling me about your first time. That only leaves the option that you're in love since you said that was the only reason you'd do 'it' with someone." She says in a matter of fact tone.

"That's the thing I'm not in love with that person that's why I didn't tell you."

She stays silent a while. "Was it Josh?"

I sigh "Yes" I lie.

"You're lying. Who was it?"

"Why do you care so much about it?"

"We made a truce and I stuck to my part!"

She was right. We had made a truce. "Fine I'll tell you, BUT you have to swear you will never, never, ever bring it up. Promise?"

"I promise."

"It was Joey."

She gasps. "As in Nino Joey?" She asks with wide eye.

"Or as I like to call him asshole Joey."

"I should have known it was him."

"DO NOT TELL ANYONE!" I say sternly.

"What about Sean? I can't keep secrets from him he's my husband." She says and I narrow my eyes at her. "Fine but if you are pregnant I am going to tell him because there is no way you're going to be able to keep it a secret. Not unless you want your baby to go through life not knowing who his or her Daddy is."

"IF I am pregnant I will tell them not you."

"Fine. So how was it?" She smiles.

"How was what?" I say giving her a 'what heck are you talking about' look.

"Your first time smarty"

"Bella!"

"I told you!"

"It was good." Good was not the word for it.

"Just good?" She asks.

"Fine it was amazing. There you happy and I'm not talking about this anymore. I don't feel comfortable."

"Tell me the truth Lili, do you love him?"

I shrug. "I don't know anymore. I'm confused" I bite the inside of my lip. I've never told anyone that I loved Joey. Well maybe when I was sleeping according to Josh.

Bella walks over to me and hugs me. "You know the same thing happened to me with Sean. His ex girlfriend was always trying to separate us. You remember Monica, right?" I nod "Well one day she came up to me and said that Sean had cheated on me with her at Neil's house. She even showed me a picture of her kissing a guy that looked a lot like Sean. Sean had always told me that he loves me and all these things but after I saw the picture I didn't know anymore. When I confronted him he denied it just like Monica said he would. It wasn't till later that I found out that the day that picture was took Sean had been at jewelry stores looking for an engagement ring for me. What I did then was ask Monica for a copy of the picture. She gave me one thinking that it would be prove and that I would leave Sean. When I showed it to Sean he said that was Neil not him. I looked at the picture more closely and surely enough it was Neil." She smiles "I felt so bad and I kept telling him I was sorry and to forgive me. He took me into his arms and started laughing and said that if he was me and I was him he would have thought the same thing too because Neil's and him looked a lot like each other."