𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐑𝐘 - 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆

23 | Failing

It hurts to love you, but I still love you
It's just the way I feel
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"Hello," I answer as I walk to class. The crisp air surrounds me.

"I phoned you yesterday and no answer"

"Mom, I always tell you I'm busy," I tell her. Not in the mood today, I already lacked sleep but that was nothing new.

"Your dad wants you to come home" I inhale "For the weekend at least"

"I can't Mom," I tell her and stop outside the building. "I have to go"

"Family is everything Jisung, you need to start realizing that soon or you'll have nobody and it will all be too late," She says harshly before hanging up.

I scoff and walk inside, her words eat at my brain as I get into class and sit beside Seungmin. "You good?"

"Fucking amazing" I mutter.

I don't let things get to me but it felt like recently I allowed it. It seemed so easy to get under my skin nowadays and I just felt weak as I sat here and spaced out, only answering a few questions. My mom's voice haunted me.

"You haven't finished?" I look up to Seungmin who stands up and packs his things. I furrow my brows and look at the clock.

"Shit" I curse lowly, looking down to my unfinished test. I go to answer the questions quickly.

"I'll see you later," Seungmin tells me and walks away but I don't respond.

The sound of the door makes me look up and groans, my head meeting the desk as I mentally curse myself out.

"Take your time" I pick my head up and look to Minho who sits at his desk. He looked back down to the tests he started grading. I sigh lowly and continue to try to focus. It's been ten minutes later and I barely got halfway. I push my hair out of my face "What's wrong?"

I shake my head and get up, grabbing the paper and my things. I walk to his desk and set it down "Nothing. I just don't know these answers"

I turn to walk away "Jisung" I stop and turn back to him. Minho gets up and walks to me "Tell me what's wrong"

"I don't know the answers"

"It's the same test I gave out last week," He tells me, knowing I was bullshitting him, "You got all the answers right, now, tell me what's making you not focus"

I look away "It doesn't matter"

"I'm here for you Jisung" I slowly look up to meet his eyes and they beg for me to open up.

"I'm thinking of dropping out," I tell him the truth.

Minho furrows his brows "What?" His voice was confused, "What are you talking about?"

I lean onto his desk and shrug, "I'm exhausted, I work late and wake up early for lectures, and on top of that my mom is constantly in my ear about going home and how this dream of mine is useless. I think i'm starting to believe it"

"Hey," His soft voice makes me realize how worked up I've become, grabbing my hand in his. "Don't let others succeed in making you fail"

"But aren't I already failing as a son?"

"Makes the both of us" I furrow my brows as his voice responds, "Nobody is perfect Ji and sometimes you have to be selfish," He tells me, "Your smart, so fucking smart and it would be a shame to let all that go to waste"

I look down to his hand in mine and I frown. Missing his warmth. "Thanks," I said lowly, pulling away and looking at him "I should go"

Minho nods "Think about what I said," He tells me as I walk past him.

*Song rec - 13 Beaches
by Lana Del Rey *