The Vanishing Love Story

Sabrina

The day I realized I still loved Elijah and the day I met Zach

Attending Sunday service was my family and I's daily routine, we would join the 9:00 am service, and have lunch with our relatives. During the service, I thought about Elijah and how much I wanted him to forgive me, how much I wanted to turn back time and not break up with him, but I know this needed to happen. Seeing him again in the supermarket looking sad, made me regret what I did, and it made me realize how much I still loved him. 

I wanted to say something but I knew that he didn't want to do anything with me, I understood that, i understood the pain I've caused him, but I knew I needed to have closure with him so I wrote him a message asking him if we can talk. 

Sabrina: 

Hey Elijah! I know you deleted my number but I just wanted to ask if we can talk? 

I sent it, not expecting anything from him, as I was doing my skincare routine before my lunch date with Scarlett, my phone vibrated. I walked to my closet after putting on some moisturizer, I chose a white cropped t-shirt, paired with high waisted jeans, with some gold stud earrings bought from Callie. 

I sighed, opening Zach's message with a mix of curiousity and apprehension 

Zach: 

Hey Sabrina, can we meet and talk? There are some things I want to discuss. 

My eyebrows furrowed as I read his message. I hesitated for a moment, debating whether I should respond. He and I had one night, one night of making out with each other because we were both drunk, which caused people calling me a "homewrecker". But, my curious side, wanted to know what he wanted to say. 

I took a deep breath and replied: 

Sure, Zach. Let's meet at 4 pm okay? 

I finished getting ready, while waiting for his response, my mind wandering to Elijah, realizing that i still loved him. I disliked myself for how I felt, knowing that i made a pact to myself of never running back to my exes, but Elijah was the exception. I knew that even if more people hate me, I needed Elijah to know i still loved him, but I knew I needed help, and that help would be Zach. 

Zach's response came in quickly: 

Zach: 

Sounds good! See you at 4. 

As I read his message, a mix of nerves, and anticipation welled on me. My feelings were complicated despite our breakup and my promise of self love, seeking Zach's help felt like a risky move. However, deep down I understood the importance of addressing the unresolved feelings and closure. 

I headed out for the lunch date with Scarlett, most of the time, my mind was a whirlwind of thoughts. Wondering if I wanted Elijah back or wondering if I just needed to closure to focus on my mental health, and focusing on self love. I knew turning to Zach will give me guidance in navigating these complex feelings without hurting other people again in the process. 

As I sat across from Scarlett, who had wavy brunette hair that reached her shoulders, a pair of glasses on top of her hazel eyes, she would always look put together, she always knew what to say and what to do in situations. The aroma of food surrounded us, but my mind was occupied with thoughts of breaking up Elijah and Alaine, but at the same time, sticking to focusing on myself and losing the one person that could potentially be my soulmate. 

Scarlett's presence across from me was a constant reminder of her unwavering support and stability. Her wavy brunette hair framed her face, and the glasses perched on her nose gave her an air of sophistication. She exuded a sense of calm, always appearing put together, and ready to tackle any situation.