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Aurora

As I sat at my vanity in my room and stared into my own eyes, I realised just how much I'd changed and I wasn't talking about physically. Where there used to be light behind my eyes, there was only darkness. Being numb was something I'd come accustomed to, it was all apart of my plan. If I was dead inside, if I made everyone who crossed my path fear me then I could never be let down, I could never be touched and that's exactly what I wanted.

~Platform 9 and 3/4 3 hours later~

I let my eyes roam around the busy platform, a scowl on my face. Parents hugging their children, groups of friends hugging eachother after not seeing eachother for 6 weeks. It was moments like this that I let my emotions creep in, because my parents weren't here to see me off and even though I did have a couple of people I classed as my 'friends', I would rather stab myself in the eye than be caught hugging them. It made me sad that I felt that way but it wasn't something I was ever meant to do.

I shook the embarrassing thoughts from my mind and climbed aboard the train, making my way straight to the back where I knew I'd find the rest of slytherin house. I didn't stop for anyone who was walking towards me, I only barged straight past them, not an ounce of emotion on my face. That was until....
"Hey watch where you're going, have you no respect for anyone else" I turned around slowly to be met by none other than Harry Potter.
"How dare you speak to me, you filthy blood traitor. I'll do exactly as I please". I gave him no time to respond as I carried on pushing my way through everyone. I eventually made it to where I wanted to be and as I opened the door to the carriage, I immediately spotted a head of white blonde hair. "Hey Malfoy, still using that bleach I see" i smirked at my own words. "Decampo, still void of any respect I see" he spat at me. "Funny you say that, just had a run in with little Potter and he said the exact same thing" my smirk only grew at the thought. "Where's Nott and Riddle, Malfoy?" I spoke again after a few minutes of silence. "They should be here any second now... Ahhh there they are" as he spoke the words I spun around on the spot to be met with one pair of honey brown eyes and light brown curls and another pair of dark brown almost black eyes and a mop of chocolate curls. "Damn Decampo, you never told me you got hot in your letters" Theodore spoke with a smirk as his eyes roamed up and down my body. "Oh fuck off Nott, never gonna happen" I said as I poked my tongue out at him. He let out a small chuckle and moved around me to sit next to Draco and he started ruffling his perfectly gelled hair which made Draco huff in annoyance. I turned around again to look at Mattheo, who hadn't said one word since he stepped into the carriage, so naturally me being me decided to speak up first. "Cat got your tongue Riddle?". He looked at me with a scowl on his face, clearly not amused by what I'd just said, "watch it Decampo, everyone else might be afraid of you, but I am not" his words came out harsh with no sense of humour at all. "Suck my dick Riddle, how about that" I spat back and held my middle finger up to him, "I really don't know how I deal with you imbeciles every god damn day" Draco said to all of us. "We've not even gotten to school yet and you're already causing drama Aurora, just sit the fuck down" he let out a deep breath telling me he was done with his little outburst, I however was definitely not.

"What did you just call me Malfoy?" I said with gritted teeth. "I called you by your name, Aurora. Not that I know why it's your name, such a beautiful name for someone with such an ugly personality" his face was stone cold, he was angry. "Don't test me Malfoy, I will gut you with my bare hands. You call me Decampo, nothing else, got it?" My chest was rising and falling rapidly now and Theo definitely noticed as he tried to lighten the mood. "Hey guys come on, just sit down Aurora, let's not argue" but as soon as the words left his mouth, he realised he'd made the same mistake that Malfoy just did. "Nott I swear to fuck, if any of you ever call me Aurora again I will kill you all" I'm surprised there wasn't steam coming out of my ears at this point but before anyone else got a chance to say anything, Mattheo stood up and shouted "I swear to god,if you don't all shut the fuck up" he locked eyes with me and said "sit down, now" and for the first time ever I listened, not because he scared me but because I couldn't really be bothered to sit in silence the whole train ride.

There was a deafening silence though, for at least an hour or more and I couldn't take it any longer, "Okay can we all grow up now and just talk, this silence is forcing me to listen to the voices in my head" I said as I crossed my arms over my chest. "Fine. Let's talk about the fact that you've changed so much Decampo, there's nothing behind your eyes anymore. What the hell happened?" Draco asked with slight worry on his face. I rolled my eyes and leaned my head back against the seat before talking, "Look, it's better for me this way, this way I can't get my feelings hurt because I don't have any, I can't get let down again by anyone, because no one will ever care enough for me to get attached" I sighed after i let the words out, I lifted my head back up to be met by now three worried expressions. "Don't look at me like that, I hate it" I said and then put my head back against the seat again. "You might of built up this hard exterior Decampo, but it's only so long before it crumbles away again and you'll be left trying to deal with more than a years worth of emotions that you pushed away" Mattheo said softly. At his words I lifted my head and looked directly into his eyes, i saw no sense of mockery in them, he meant what he said. "Aurora on the inside we all know you're like a soft fluffy bunny" Theodore spoke, a lot louder than I think he meant to. I rolled my eyes before shifting my gaze off Mattheo and over to Theo, I glared at him ready to bite but something about the small smile resting on his lips stopped me and I simply just leant my head against the window and closed my eyes.

I dreamt of a different life, a life where I was loved deeply and had so much love to give. A life where I would be walking hand in hand with Mattheo, where Theo would be my best friend and Malfoy, well we would just argue less. But that's all it was, a dream because everybody knew that Aurora Decampo wasn't capable of such things.

Authors note
1274 words in my first chapter, wow this is going to be a long story! I've quickly scanned over and I don't think there are any spelling mistakes but if you see any do let me know :)
I hope you're liking this so farrrr!!!
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