Martyrdom

13

I'm in the bed inside the room of someone I run to after noticing my mother's sick doings. I remember driving and crying on her shoulders until I passed out asleep. Now it's afternoon.

She opened the door and took a peak. See me already awake she went in and stared at me. I sat on the bed.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

"It's been days. Still you came."

"Sorry."

"Why were you crying?" I shook my head and looked away. "Is this because of him."

"No." I quickly answer and look at her.

"Then?" She raised her eyebrows.

"It's..." I can't tell her.

I sighed.

"I can't tell you."

"Then you're not leaving here until you tell me."

With her hands inside her pockets she came to me and rolled herself on my thighs burying her face on my stomach. I felt different but I smiled to the gesture. She crawled herself until she's on top of me making me lay down the bed again. Sweetly kissing my beck and cheeks.

"Tell me what happened. I don't like you crying."

I silently thanked her for that. She kissed my neck and back to my chin. She's kissing me everywhere.

"It's about my mother."

"Uh-huh."

"I saw her this morning, fucking a stranger in her room." She froze and look at me.

"This morning I dreamed of you coming here without me dragging your ass but I didn't wished seeing you with tears." I smiled but I know I was sad. "Mind if I know what happened?"

I have the urge to tell her what happened. I don't care about anything, I wanna tell her. I'm like a person with nothing yo lose everytime I'm with her. So I sighed and prepared myself to tell her what is on my mind and tell her a little story.

"Before Tae and I met, we are a happy family. A family with good hearts and a good individual to many." She stopped kissing me to listen to my story. With pain in my eyes I managed to stare in her deep soul. "My father was an  engineer and my mom once own a small grocery store  we're not rich but we're not poor either. We still manage to help who's in needs, we have the money to feed our family three times a day and have a vacation to places, we were happy. Not until Mom started an affair without my dad's knowledge. I've seen it with my own eyes that Mom kissed a guy whom I don't know. But was familiar. The trembling in my hands and the fear that our family would tore I hid it to dad. He came busy when he started working with Taehyung's father as the head engineer to their company. It became worst when Dad died."

My eyes blurred with tears. Not knowing I was already crying, she wipe my tears and kiss my cheeks. I still continued my sad story.

"I know you wanna hear everything." I sat on the bed and she dis also. "I wanna tell you and wanted to tell you I somehow build trust and affection for you, Lisa." I cried hard. "I told my self I won't tear my marriage apart but here I am with you, telling you everything." She kept on wiping my tears with her thumb. "I am in love with someone else other than my husband." I look at her face staring at how perfect her face is. "Everything was a mess since my favorite person in the world died. I loathed mom for everything. She became furious and spent our money in the bank, even my savings she took it with her illegal doings. The bank took our house, they took every property we had, I have to sell every thing that we owned for us to live. I know you'll probably think of me as a user, a gold digger and a lying bitch but I have to marry Tae other than I love him of course, I did loved him because he was as good as my father, he was the ideal man, he helped me with everything, I loved my mom so much that I endured every pain I have to endure. Even though all she caused me was pain I am still doing all this because I love her."

"But you love him."

I breathes out.

"I do, but he wasn't the man I married years ago Lisa-yah. He started to hurt me, he hurt me physically and emotionally. He broke me. He fucked girls multiple times, he cheated on me, Lisa. He hit me with everything he sees before."

Lisa's Pov

The woman in front of me wasn't the timid woman I once saw. She's now the crying woman with pain in her eyes, telling me every pain she has in her chest that I knew she was long wanted to tell anyone for her heart to breath. She told me every pain she had in her past and especially now. Her current situation and everything. I didn't know such perfect man to cheat on her like this. She's every man's ideal girl, Taehyung didn't know what he had. He has an angel in front of him all this time.

She started shaking, her hands trembling. She cried and sob. I hugged her then tried to ease her with kissing her cheek and forehead.

"I'm bad with words Jennie. But I know when to appreciate a woman of who she is and what she had done. You're not worth your situation, you had the money and connections but you're sad and that's all useless."

Jennie's Pov

I stayed in Lisa's house for a long day. I came home late and didn't expected Tae to be in the living room drinking his favorite vodka. I was relieved while telling Lisa everything. A stranger that was lost in my world and told her everything she needs to hear about me. I didn't lied  that was all the truth. I already told her I liked and felt different about her now. I am most interested in seeing her everyday now.

I closed my arms in front of me with my bag and watch Tae swallow his drink. He looked at me with expression I cannot read.

"Where have you been? It's late."

"I was out shopping." I answered with my low voice. "Went to a spa."

"Where are the things you bought then."

That was stupid of me to not think of that.

"I don't feel like buying anything. I probably see them again tomorrow."

I walked away glad he didn't asked further more. I went to our room and run a bath. Relaxed myself on the tub and closed my eyes.

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