Martyrdom

19

"Lisa, I have to go back." I said. She only groaned. We're in bed and she's hugging me and on top of me "and you're heavy."

She giggled.

"Please come back tomorrow." She whispered.

I nodded and kissed her one more time.

••••

Lisa's affair and I continued for a long time now.

We've been dating secretly and meeting in her apartment and in different clubs for four months now. I've never been this happy my entire life. She made me realize I can still be happy with other people. I can still find my long gone happiness. I've been going to her apartment recently. Working and then back to the house, having breakfast and dinner with Tae and then say I'm going out with the girls but that was all lies. I'll be in Lisa's arms and then go home late, seeing Tae asleep on the bed.

As the time goes by I want to reveal everything that I had done. I want to tell him that I haven't been so loyal. But everytime I got to think of what he also had done to me I cry and feel madness. Sating he deserves everything. I also deserves happiness. But not this kind of happiness where I am hurting other people. I'm on my laptop scrolling through Pinterest when I felt something grumbling insise my stomach. I haven't been feeling well lately and I'm a bit exhausted everyday even though I did nothing.

Lisa came out of her wardrobe fixing her white polo's buttons. My forehead furrowed when I really felt different with my abdomen at the moment.

"Hon, I'm off to work this after—"

She didn't finished what she has to say when I left her and run to the bathroom. I immediately open the bowls cover and vomited.

"Jennie!" She rubbed my back and helped me with my hair. "What happened, are you sick?"

I continued to spit out, vomiting while she's rubbing my back. My head is spinning and my stomach is grumbling. I am not really doing good. I sat on the tiled floor of her bathroom and sighed. She wiped the corner of my lips and flashed the toilet. She held my face and stared at me.

"Get up."

She helped me stand and give me water. I gargled and hugged her.

"Can you not go to work? I will miss you."

She rubbed my back.

"Are you fine? You have to see a doctor, Hon—"

"No, I don't need a doctor. I just miss you."

"We've been together the whole night last night and you slept with me, you told me you'll be going home so I'm working late tonight."

"Can't that wait?"

"I hate to say this but, Tae's on his way back here to Seoul."

I groaned and cried on her chest. She was quick to face me. I glared at her.

"Are you crying?"

"No." But the tears didn't let me lie.

She laughed.

"What are you doing?" She asked.

"I hate you." I pushed her and went out of the bathroom.

"Your changing of moods lately satisfy me a lot." She laughed again and hugged me from behind. "I'll get you your favorite later." She kissed my neck making me giggle. "First, I have to go to my meeting."

••••

I got home first before Tae. I changed into my comfy clothes before I got to tiptoe to his office. He arrived a few moments ago.