Martyrdom

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I begged for her to not go when she opened her car's door and left. But she left. I came back to the hotel alone. I cried and called her for how many times but she didn't answered. Her phone was off and I can't contact her after how many times of dialing. I messaged her multiple times but she won't reply. I even throw my phone on the corner of the room. I don't know where to find her.

I lost my energy that night, I fell asleep on the bed without even doing my night routine. I'm so exhausted when I woke up. I heard something in the living room. I rushed to go see who's there hoping it's her. But I was stunned and my feet froze on the floor when I saw Taehyung.

"Good morning!" He cheerfully greeted.

"Tae." I called unexpected of his presence. "What are you doing here?"

"I decided to visit you and take you to some place. I miss my wife."

I was surprise. For how many years he only said that once. Just today.

I looked at my wrist watch. It's eight in the morning. I headed to the bathroom. Wash myself and dressed nicely. I got out in the room dragging him hurriedly not wanting to crash into Lisa, she probably didn't know he's here and what if she'll come. He took me in a fine restaurant for breakfast. I was still in the clouds floating in his presence. Not good, I was shock. I hope he didn't notice that. He asked me multiple questions about my stay here. I responded trying my best to answer him in a calm and stiff tone. I am still thinking of Lisa. She haven't messaged me since last night. We haven't talk and I am not comfortable with that idea. I tried my best to smile and be comfortable with him.

He took me to parks, places and to restaurants. The place he took me to are the places Lisa and I headed. The restaurants and the foods we eat.

"Excuse me, I have to go to the bathroom." I said and smiled at him.

I breathes out like I was put of the fire. The inside my throat everytime we talked about how was my day was always trying to choke me. I can't tell him I lay in bed all day with Lisa making me the happiest woman ever. I calmed myself, tell myself I have to act cool because I know him well than anyone else. He's my husband. I know how to get into his good side. Just act cool like nothing happened. You were just shocked Jennie, you were just surprised seeing him here.

I kept reminding that to myself until we both run out of energy and went back to the hotel.

"Did you try some other perfumes?" He asked me while he sit on the sofa and watch movie on Netflix. I am making him coffee. The smell was perfectly Lisa's fragrance. God how strong is her perfumes that it lingers inside the room even she's not here.

"No, why?" I added sugar to his coffee before I gave it to him. He smiled at me.

"The room smelled manly, not your scent."

He sip on his coffee.

"I don't know, I have the room cleaned before we got home, maybe that's why?"

I sat beside him and looked at him carefully. How I miss talking random with you in nights like this. I can't help but wonder how would the days will go if you weren't so in love with your business and money, if you're only so focused and in love with me. How will this marriage will go?
We talked about his company and how it's going. I know I kept distancing myself everytime I felt him wanting to bed me. I reasoned we are both exhausted from what we did all day and we had a long flight tomorrow, early in the morning.

Now came the morning. I had dreams of Lisa. I can't keep her off my mind. Where she is now and what she's doing. Jealousy crept into my being, maybe she's with her women now? Realizing I am not good enough for her, that she's just wasting her time on me? I'm going crazy for this.