Ghosts and Records

Confessions

At the party

I had cleaned up my act just enough for the party. I still kept a pack of Marlboros in my pocket. There are drinks here. But I will hold myself back. I just hope John gets here soon so I can at least apologize. I walk out to the back door and see Jane at the grill. Terezi was standing next to her sniffing the raw burgers. I sat down in a lawn chair and pulled out a cigarette. I stuck it between my teeth and lit it up. Before I could even take in one puff TZ is standing next to me.
"Hi Dave.", she giggled

"What is it T."

"Oh I just wanted to say hi."

"Uh huh. Yeah okay."

I breathed out some smoke.
"Davey! Are you smoking?"

"Yeah. So"

I blew some smoke in her face just to be an ass and she stormed off. Jane looked over at me. I shrugged. She turned back to the grill and began flipping the burgers.

Later that night

John had showed up with Karkat on his arm. Guess he is finally out of the closet. I sighed and looked around. Everyone was having a good time. Here I am being miserable. I really need to apologize to John.
I stood up and walked over to him. He turned as I tapped his shoulder.
"Hey John can we go speak in private."

"Sure."

His face was not happy. I walked out the front door and a little ways down the street. He followed me not saying a word.
"So you and Vantas."

He shook his head.
"But when you two walked in he was all over your arm."

"He just dumped me."

Yes. Yes. Yes.
"Dude that fucking sucks."

He shrugged again. I stepped a little closer to him. He didn't notice.
"So I want to apologize for the whole Jade thing."

He stiffened a little.
" John, I am really fucking sorry. I was drunk at the time and didn't know what I was doing. Also it was her that kissed me. She was all like 'oh Dave we should totally make out' and I was like 'I don't kiss my best friends sister'. Then she just grabbed me and kissed me. That chick has a fucking iron grip."

He nodded. I stopped and turned to face him.
"John there is something else I need to tell you."

"What"

"I am gay."

"Oh God."

"Yeah, and one last thing."

"Hm?"

I grabbed him by the collar of his shirt and pulled him up so his ear was close to my lips. I whispered into his ear softly.
"John, I like you, more than a bro."

I moved my head back to look at him. His adorable cheeks were bright red an he just stared at me. I put my hand under his chin and lifted it up. Slowly inching closer to him. He closed the gap. His lips were so soft and warm. It was pure bliss. Why haven't I tried this before. It was amazing.

John's POV

It was happening. My first kiss. It was with Dave. DAVE MOTHERFUCKING STRIDER was kissing ME, JOHN EGBERT. It was amazing. His lips were thin and fit perfectly with my plump ones. They were so warm.
I moved my hand to his neck and turned my head deepening the kiss. He put his hands on my waist. My hands began playing with the back of his hair. We pulled apart and he wrapped my in his arms. He put his face in my hair and began humming a familiar tune.
I buried my face in his chest and pulled him close to me. I was blushing like crazy. This was one of my happiest moments. I was almost glad Karkat dumped me.
"Hey Dave."

"Yeah John"

"I-I like you too."

He leaned down to my ear and began to whisper.
"John, you have no idea how happy this makes me. You have no idea how amazing this is compared to the last two months of my life."

"What happened?"

"I just got back into some old habits."

"What habits exactly.", I raised my eyebrow.

Dave pulled a box of cigarettes and waved it in the air. I sighed. He pulled one out and lit it after shoving the box back into his pocket. He smirked looking down at me.

"Dave, I never knew you smoked."

He shrugged. I looked down. His skintight jeans were no longer skintight. My eyes moved up to his torso. His old record shirt was baggy. I put my hand to his ribs. I could feel all five.
"Dave!"

He was staring down at my hand. That is when I noticed how sunken in his cheeks were. I put my hand to his face and took his shades off. His eyes were a pale pink. Purple bags hung under his eyes. I almost cried. This boy looked like death.
"Dave, what have you been doing."

Shrug.
"Dave please tell me. "

Tears were forming in my eyes. His were staring sadly back at me. His eyes began to look a little glassy. Then he fell. I caught him before his head could hit the ground.
"Dave!"