It's fine, it's just life

Ten

Lilly Russo pov

Covering my ears I silently cry. I'm sitting on the floor, my back facing my door.

My thighs are bleeding, Jason had pressed his nails in my skin so now their is blood.

Getting my soft stuffed animal I bring it closer to my chest.

I look at my other stuffed animals, guilt. Guilt is all I feel, I wish they didn't have to see that. This was anothor reason why i asked Joise to keep Rose.

Layimg my head on the door I sigh. I sniffle as tears roll down my cheeks.

Apparently my getting fat, that's what Jason and mother said.

I don't think I am, my cheeks are just getting chubby.

I think it's cute!

I look at the time. 6:14. I read. Getting up I grab some clothes a bra and undergarments.

Going to my bathroom, I strip from my ripped clothes and turn on the water cold.

Getting in I don't flinch as the cold water hits my body. I watch my blood going down and circle around redrain then go down.

I then begin to shampoo conditioning and crub, shaving.

About twenty minutes later I finish. Getting out I wrap a pink towel around me.

After drying myself I poo it on my bra and undergarments. I then put my whole outfit.

Combing out my hair out from the bottom I slowly go to to the top.

I decided to leave it down. I grab my lip balm and put it on.

Once I'm done I get my bag, checking the time I read. 7:57.

Quickly leaving my bathroom and grabbing my phone and backpack I run out the door.

Two blocks later realization hits me. I forgot to bursh my teeth!

Pulling out gum I chew it, I then run.

About fivtheen minutes later I arrive, I run.

My eyes widen as I trip I close my eyes shut.

My eyes widen as I feel someone grab me bringing me to their chest.

I look up to see Ryan, he looks at me with worry. I look behind him to see Luca, Axel, Bella and Jake.

"I think I swollowed my gum." I say.

I hear Ryan chuckle.

"Hi!" I say giggling. They look at me smiling.

"Hello darling." Ryan says as I blush, I quickly pull away from him.

"Someone's blushing!" Luca shouts as my eyes widen.

"Nah uh!" I shout looking at him.

"It's ok, Ryan thinks it's cute." Luca says, I look at Ryan to see him blushes his eyes widen.

"Nah uh!" He says as I giggle.

/ / /

Giggling I jump on Ryan's back, his arms go to his back holding me secure so I don't fall.

I wrap my arms around his neck but not to tight to choke him.

"I'll give you thirty dollars if you carry her to your place." Bella says smirking, Luca and Axel sniker.

"I'll do it for free." Ryan says.

About five minutes later we we're still walking, well Ryan is.

"Y'know you don't gotta actually carry me." I say.

"It's fine, you're light as a feather. Do you eat darling?" He questions worrily.

"Yes." I lie.

I only eat once a day and one snack. Jason says we must be in good shape.

It's just me and Ryan the others walked home.

"Can I ask you a question darling?" Ryan ask as I nod.

"Why do you choose to be friends with us then the others?" He questions me.

"Because you guys are alot nicer. I know we've only been friends for a while but I feel more comfortable with you guys." I say honestly.

"And you guys don't judge me." I added.

"We could never judge you darling."

Ryan De Luca pov

Arriving home I pull out my keys and opening the door.

Lilly gets down from my back. I shamelessly watch as she streaches.

"Lilly!" I hear my mothers voice.

We both look at her.

"Hi!" Lilly says happily.

"Ma is it ok if my other friends come?" I ask her, she nods happily.

"Well I'll leave you two kids alone." Mom says looking at me as she smirks.

My eyes widen she walks away chucking.

/ / /

"What does fucking mean?" Lilly suddenly ask Luca chokes his water. All of us look at her to see her looking at us inoccently.

"Uh?" Bella ask.

"What. Does. Fuckin-"

"We heard you love. Where did you hear that?" Bella ask.

"In the bathroom I heard two girls talking they said something about fucking someone." She says inoccently.

"Ok, don't say fuck no more." Axel says, Lilly looks at us confused.

"It's a bad word." Luca says, Lilly's eyes widen as she slaps her mouth over her lips.

Slowly she takes her hand away from her mouth and whispers. "I said a no, no word?"

Anothor chapter it's short but it's better then nothing. But thank you guys for all ready and waiting patiently for a chapter. Im kind going through difficulties but I'm trying to make sure you guys have a updated chapter.

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