The Best Regret [BxBxB+]

FIFTEEN | WHEN I SAW YOU

ELIAS

I was going to the boys, and my GPS said I had ten more minutes left to get there. I contemplated whether to go or not but went against my negative thoughts. In all honesty, I'm scared. I have no idea what they wanted to talk about. 

Especially in a room full of boys, I haven't seen in years. Especially when I am utterly in love with them. While being gone for three years, I tried to date people to get my mind off of them, having sex, but not a lot, don't get me wrong. But it was nothing compared to them. 

Speaking of exes, I have this crazy stalker ex named Brian. He was obsessed with me, and no matter how hard I tried to like him, I couldn't.  He wasn't them.

I descended the dirt path, and my heart started racing while my stomach fluttered. I pulled in and parked on the grass. I get out of my car and shut the door. Instead of going to the door, I stood there frozen. I couldn't find the courage to move. I was waiting by my car when the house door opened, Liam running to me with a big smile. "Elias!" The curly head yelled, tripping in the process. "Ow..." Liam rubbed his knee.

"Liam! Are you okay?" I ran towards him, but while doing so, I stopped when the boy zoomed off the ground and landed right into my arms. "I missed you so much." He mumbled into my shirt. I smiled and hugged him tightly. "I missed you too." 

We hugged for a second until I saw Jayden and Taylor come outside. Jayden jogged towards me and hugged me tightly, and I did return. My eyes shot over to Taylor, who was smiling. "Hi, Elias. Come on in." He invited. I nodded my head and followed the guys in the house. While walking inside, I saw they painted most of the walls white. It was very empty, with boxes scattered everywhere. 

Sitting on the couch, I remembered the for-sale sign at the end of the driveway. "Taylor... Why is there a for sale sign?" I asked, frowning. Liam was sitting on my lap, and Jayden was sitting beside me. Taylor was sitting on the floor, knees in his arms. 

Taylor's smile faltered, and he looked at me intensely. "That's what I wanted to talk to you about," He straightened up. "I retired. Well, I wouldn't say retired, but I stopped taking in boys. I decided it was time to stop. With that, we're moving into a home for all of us." 

I didn't say anything for a while after that. Not until the door opened, talking coming from the door. "God, can't believe that bitch almost hit me." Paxton muttered, putting the car keys down on the table. Cole walked in, and I saw his pink hair. He also did his makeup. "It was kind of your fault." Chase laughed, slapping Paxton on the shoulder. "Watch it." He threatened. 

"We're back!" Addison yelled, probably thinking the others were upstairs. I stared at the boys in awe, looking at them individually. Chase grew his hair out a little, Paxton got a lip ring, Addison got built, and Cole dyed his hair and got an eyebrow piercing. Cole had a frown and knew something was different. 

As he was looking around, His blue eyes caught mine. He quirked his eyebrows, confusion written all over him. He shook his head and muttered a "I'm tripping out." And continued to look at the others. "Guys I think I'm going crazy." He sighed, grabbing onto the wall.

I spoke, catching their attention. I didn't understand how they didn't see me yet. It was quite funny. Cole snapped his head, and his mouth opened in shock.

"Hi." 

Chase, Paxton, and Addison ran towards me, throwing me to the ground. Liam fell off of me, whining in the process. "Ow, that hurt!" He rubbed his head. The others were on top of me, telling me how much they missed me. I couldn't help but peek my eyes between their heads to see Cole. He was crying. 

Taylor walked over to him and said something. Cole hugged him and looked at me with tears coming down his face. He let go of Taylor and walked away, going upstairs.

Where is he going? Did he not want to see me?

I pushed the thought and smiled through the worry. "I missed you guys too." I laughed, trying to hug all of them. Addison got off of me and smirked. "You look... different." He stated the obvious. The others nodded, agreeing with him as they got off of me. 

I shrunk my head and frowned. They didn't all have to say that did they? Did they think it was a bad change? "I guess. You all don't have to say that. Is it that big of a change?" I huffed. They apologized and reassured me that is was, in fact, a good change. 

I excused myself upstairs to find Cole, but he wasn't found in his room. I checked in all of them and nothing. I decided to check the bathrooms, and behold, he was staring at himself in the mirror, rubbing off his smeared makeup.

He saw me through the mirror and didn't say anything, just gave me a nasty look. Ouch. That kind of hurt. How do I even talk to him this way? 

I can't stand emotional boys. I frowned to myself and walked up behind him. Cole noticed this but didn't move or say anything. He just continued to wipe his makeup off. "Hey, Cole." I whispered, grabbing his shoulder lightly. He turned around and huffed, slapping my hand in the process. 

"Look, I don't know what you're doing here. I don't want you to hurt the others like you did when you left. YOU left US. I don't want you here if you're going to do the same thing over and over again. So, what is it, Elias? What are you doing here?!" He yelled, walking to me with each word. I ended up walking back and tripping on the tub, falling into it. 

I scrunched my face, rubbing my head as it stung. I look at the pink haired boy with a frown. He had a point. What am I doing here? Do I even want them back? 

I hear steps coming from the hallway and I figured it was the other's wondering what the yelling and the bang was all about. Cole was crying still, rage and hurt written all over his face. 

"You're right." I admitted, looking down, trying to gain my composure. I see the other boys at the door. "I don't know why I'm here. I'll just walk away like I did last time." I sighed, my hand rushing to my hair, pushing it out of the way. 

I think I said the wrong thing, because all of a sudden, I was getting punched in the face by Cole. He grabbed my shirt and socked my jaw. "Cole!" Taylor roared. He grabbed the short one, and I sat there, still in the tub, looking down in my lap. 

"How could you?! You came all the way over here just to say that?" Cole whimpered. He relaxed in Taylor's arms and cried. Cried hard. I heard Addison and Paxton say something to me. Probably hurt by what I said. 

"No..." I said, getting up slowly. I found the courage to look at all of them. "You all don't know me anymore. I fucking changed. Do you think this is easy for me..." I gasped, tears threatening to fall. "I don't even know myself anymore. I came here because I missed you all. I am utterly in love with you." I seethed. 

"That is one thing I know." I whispered, finishing my rant. Quietness filled the room as I said that. Maybe I shouldn't of came. I'll just hurt them like I did.

"Make up your mind. Are you here to stay, or not? Or do you just want to mess with our feelings?" Jayden wondered, looking at me with pure darkness. If I say the wrong thing, it's over. I'll probably be murdered. 

"I don't know..." I spoke. 

"And he doesn't have to." Liam quietly said. He came forward and helped me out of the tub. He smiled lightly at me. I opened my mouth, confused this boy is sticking up for me. After all, it hurt him the most. He looked at the others with a frown. "It took him a lot of courage to probably come here. That's a big step. Let's give him time and space." He encouraged the others. 

They all smiled, even Cole, even though his smile was probably forced. 

My face was still sore, though.