Come back // Hyunlix

9- warning self harm

Chapter nine

Felix's pov

Waking up the next morning for school I was actually excited. It meant I got to see Hyunjin again. I couldn't stop thinking about him after I left. He was so nice and sweet with me, and that kiss. Oh man the kiss. I get dressed quickly, grabbing his washed hoodie and made my way to school.

Walking in I see Han and Jeongin, they make their way over hugging me. "Felix we are so sorry about the party" Han says pulling away. I honestly had forgotten about that girl, her outing me to half the school basically. I shake my head, "don't worry about it guys, I am sorry I left without saying anything" I say back at them smiling. "Promise us you will tell us if it gets bad again please" Jeongin says sweetly to me. "I promise I will tell you guys" I say back.

My vision shifted, Hyunjin walked in. He looked around finally finding me and giving me a soft smile. "I'll see you in class" I tell the two of them as I make my way over to him. But then his friend walks over to him, it was too late for me to turn around. "Uh hi" I say to them quietly. His friend turning to me, "what the fuck do you want freak" he speaks up. "Oh I just wanted to give this back to you" I tell Hyunjin handing him the hoodie.

His friend laughs, "what the fuck stalker why do you have his hoodie" he ask back making jokes at me. "I uh um" I tried to respond but couldn't stop stuttering. "What the hell, did you sneak into his house and steal it. I knew you were weird but I didn't know you were that fucking creepy" he claps back. Hyunjin just stood there, I don't know what I was expecting him to say but he finally spoke.

"Yea what the fuck is wrong with you creep" he says rudely pushing me backwards. I was shocked. "Don't touch my shit ever again" he hisses at me, both of them pushing past me walking away. I just stood there too stunned to move. I could feel the tears coming, I ran into the bathroom. Running into the stall I broke down. What the hell happened between yesterday and today.

He was being so different now, he was hurting me. I tried to regain my composure but my mind wouldn't let me. It kept telling me what a fool I was for believing Hyunjin was a good person. I was stupid to think he actually liked me. I couldn't control myself, I reached into my bag trying to find anything. Dumping it out onto the floor I heard someone walk in. I scrambled to pick everything back up but they spoke up, "you okay in there" their voice echoing between the stalls.

"Uh yea" I say back my voice cracking a little bit. I heard them wash their hands and leave. The bell rang but I didn't care. I found what I was looking for. Taking apart my pencil sharpener I detach the blade. Bringing it to my arm I leave just a small line of cuts, nothing too deep but just enough.

I relaxed, slipping down the side of the stall looking down at my arm. I was sick, I was twisted, actually enjoying how it felt to do this again. It was invigorating. Chills and goosebumps formed all around my body. I took a few more minutes before I called Ronnie.

R: Felix what's wrong?
Me: I don't feel good, can you sign me out of school?
R: are you okay? What's wrong?
Me: I just don't feel good I think I have the flu.
R: okay let me call in, I won't be home to take care of you. I have training all week so I'm staying at the dorms okay
Me: okay just call it in please

Hanging up the phone I give it a few minutes before she texts me I was good to go home. I gathered my stuff and left the bathroom. Not before covering my new cuts with some paper towel hiding them in my sleeve. I walked out the door and walked home. I texted my boss telling him I was sick and he told me to rest up. I felt bad for lying but I just didn't want to be there.

Going home I hide my bloody towels in the trash and cover up the cuts with bandaids. Falling into bed I texted Han and Gin that I was sick since they kept asking where I went. I bursted out crying again, my mind was on Hyunjin.

I was such a fool.

Hyunjins pov

Walking into school I jog ahead of Minho, wanting to look around for Felix before the first bell rang. I saw him and he saw me, I smiled over to him. I watched as he said goodbye to his friends and made his way over. My heart was beating out of my chest. But it stopped right away when Minho came up behind me, Felix couldn't change his course he was already too close.

Minho picked up on this as Felix said "uh hi", his eyes not looking at Minho but just me. Minho speaks up first, "what the fuck do you want freak" taking Felix by surprise as he responds, "Oh I just wanted to give this back to you" handing me my hoodie. Fuck fuck fuck Hyunjin say something but Minho beat me to it. Laughing at Felix he says "what the fuck stalker why do you have his hoodie".

Felix tried to respond but kept stuttering. Minho interrupts, "What the hell, did you sneak into his house and steal it. I knew you were weird but I didn't know you were that fucking creepy". I couldn't move all I could do was watch it unfold in front of me, Minho looked over at me with a confused look so I finally spoke, "Yea what the fuck is wrong with you creep". I pushed him backwards and watched as his face shifted from confusion to hurt.

"Don't touch my shit ever again" I hiss at him as Minho and I pushed past him and walked away. My heart broke, I didn't know why I was acting like this. I didn't want to but I also didn't want to seem weak to Minho. "Dude what if he actually broke into your house or something" he laughs as we walk to our first class. "I mean it's weird but I think I left it at the cafe the other day, he works there" I say back trying to come up with a different excuse but I just made it worse.

"Dude he works at a cafe, haha what a loser" Minho laughs again as we take our seats. I waited for Felix to come into the class but he never showed up. It made me worry, I couldn't think about anything else but him. Lunch rolled around and I continued to look for him, I even went outside to check if he was with his friends but they sat outside without him.

I walked up to them, getting both of their attentions looking up at me. "Do you know where Felix is" I ask them. Looking at each other confused the one guy, I think his name is Han, answered "why". I sighed, "we have this project due and he was suppose to send it in but never did" I come up with a lie. "He went home sick today" the other one tells me earning a slap on the arm from Han. "Gin why the fuck did you tell him" he whispers to him as the other one shrugged.

I was half way to the cafeteria before I stopped and walked out. Getting into my car I put in Felix's address nd drive to his house. I needed to see him and apologize.