Come back // Hyunlix

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I had an idea for a new book last night and this one kind of feels finished to me so I will probably wrap this one up as I work on my next book.

Chapter twenty eight

Felix POV

It had been a week, a week of Hyunjin taking care of me and watching me eat. Making sure I was getting all the nutrients I had been missing the past few weeks before. He was being amazingly sweet. I couldn't help but feel just so pleased with how my life was at the moment. But something still worried me, I hadn't talked to Ronnie since we had that fight and our parents anniversary was tomorrow. Both of us are extremely stubborn not bending until the other one breaks first.

School was on break so I was spending time with Hyunjin and Minho, Han and Jeongin ended up joining us at my place as well. We were all sitting around talking and laughing when I heard the front door rattle. The sound brought me back to reality as I saw Ronnie walk in. We all looked to the door as she set her stuff down, completely ignoring us all as she went to her room. I shifted in Hyunjins lap, he noticed and hugged me a little tighter as the room got quiet. I huffed, standing to my feet and following Ronnie, walking into her room as I shut the door behind us.

"What" she asks plainly, still not looking at me. "What, how about what are you doing here" I say back getting slightly annoyed. "What my name is on the house why wouldn't I be allowed here" she spits back. "Your name is on the house but its not like you pay for anything here" I mumble back to her. She whips her head around, "ya and I paid for you back in Australia so whats your point" she asks raising her voice.

"I didn't come here to fight with you, I just wanted to grab a few more things for the dorm" she huffs out. "Are you not going to apologize" I ask back crossing my arms. "Ha apologize for what Felix" she asks back, sarcasm lacing her voice. "For everything you said to me, and for how you treated Hyunjin" I say back still annoyed. That was one thing Ronnie wasn't know for, sympathy or empathy. You wronged her once and that was it, no second chances.

"I am not apologizing to you or that boy out there" she says back grabbing a few more of her things before pushing past me out the door. I follow close behind her yelling out her name but she slams the front door as she left. I could feel everyones eyes on me, I felt pathetic and angry. I sighed and turned back around going to my own room, I just wanted to be alone to gather my thoughts. We never really fought like this before, sure we had spats here and there but nothing this serious. I understand where she is coming from, wanting to protect me but jesus christ I'm almost 19 I don't need to be handled with kid gloves.

I heard a soft knocking on my door, I hummed loudy as the person enters my room. I felt the bed dip as strong arms wrap around me. "Hey babe" I say softly to Hyunjin as he nuzzles into my neck. He leaves small kisses on my back and neck before coming back to my ear, "Hi Angel" he whispers to me. I flip around and turn to him as he pulls me in closer to his chest. I didn't even want to cry, my emotions were muted at this point. I was just tired and exhausted and mentally preparing for the day tomorrow.

"Talk to me Angel" he asks softly kissing the top of my head. I just shook my head, "theres nothing to talk about" I say back as I shut my eyes. I heard more knocks on the door as we both look over, Han and Minho stood there, their eyes were soft. "We are gonna go grab food, do you guys want anything" Minho speaks up looking at us. "No thank you" I say back softly as Hyunjin tells him that he wants noodles and a slice of cake.

I hear the foot steps leave and the door shut as it was just Hyunjin and I again. "Do you want me to talk to Ronnie" he asks me which caught me by surprise. I look up at him shocked, "you don't have to do that" I say back softly as a small smile growns on his face. "I want to, maybe it will help her come to terms with everything" he tells me leaning in and kissing my nose. "It might make things worse" I mumble back but he shook his head, "let me at least try babe please" he whines back making my giggle a little. I nod my head and he leans in and kisses me softly, his lush pink lips touching mine I felt my whole body ignite.

Hyunjin left me once everyone came back with their snacks and food from the store. I told him to call me if he needed anything but he shook his head and smiled at me as he left. I hope everything goes well but knowing Ronnie it won't.

Hyunjins POV

I pulled up to the trainee center and entered, the receptionist looked up at me with a smile. "Hi there, are you here for an audition" she asks kindly but I shake my head, "no I am actually here to see Ronnie Lee" I say back as her attention goes to the screen. "Ah it looks like Ronnie rented out a studio right now for practice, its room 3D. Down the hall and to your left" she says back still smiling as I give her a bow and head down the hall.

Coming up to the door I could hear music inside, looking through the small door window I could see Ronnie dancing as the music continued. She was by herself just practicing. I got nervous, I didn't know if I should like knock or just go in so I just waited for the song to end. I watched her dance and practice everything, her moves were flawless. I could tell just how much she wanted to be an idol you could see it so loudly.

The music ended and I saw her take a seat, he back up against the mirror as I took my chance and entered. Her attention comes to me, her face soured looking at me. "What the hell do you want" she spits out getting up from the floor and going over to her bag. "I-Uh just wanted to talk to you, about Felix" I stutter back to her but she just scoffs. "I have nothing to say to you about anything" she tells me, throwing her things into her bag. "Ronnie please can you hear me out, its hurting Felix so much to be fighting with you" I say back with sadness in my tone gaining her attention.

"You just don't get it do you" she says finally facing me, her bag thrown to the ground next to her as she walks over to me slowly. "You are the problem here, you have been the constant factor of my brothers pain in his life" she beings to say as she gets closer making me back up in the process. "You started this, all those years ago when you got so bored with your own life and decided to take out your own shitty problems on my baby brother. I don't care what felix says, you are the reason he tried to kill himself. You are the reason he struggles being back here, you Hyunjin are always the problem" her tone getting angrier as she continues to back me against a wall.

"If you want him to be happy, leave him alone. Leave him so he can live a life without you and your sick personal gain or guilt that you feel when you are with him. You are the problem here not me" she spits out as my back finally hits the wall. I didn't know what to say, her words hurt me and I knew I needed to take responsability for my actions and I was trying to make up for my past but she couldn't see that. All she saw looking at her was the boy who tormented her brother so much he tried to end his own pain.

"I wish you could see him, the way he looks at me. The way he allows me to love him. I know I am the problem, I am always the problem. But can you not see that I am atleast trying, I know I can never take back what I put him through but if he chooses to look past it and grow with me why can't you" I say back, my voice less confident that what I wanted it to sound. She was shocked I actually spoke back to her.

"Maybe you need to look at yourself too, I am never saying I am perfect and I know that but if you can't look past your own brothers happiness than I can't help you with that. I just wish you could move forward with him, thats all he wants to do. He doesn't want to think about the past because of how sad it makes him and it makes me sad and angry knowing I did all those things to him. I will never forgive myself for what happened and I take 100% responsibility but I am choosing your brother, and I am choosing to love him and look to the future" I finish as she looks away from me.

I remove my back from the wall and walk past her as she just stood there, right before I left I turn around "Felix loves you and he doesn't want to lose another person he loves" I tell her quietly before taking my leave. The whole drive home I couldn't stop thinking about her words. I know I am the problem, I know what I did was wrong, I am trying to be a better person but something still lingered in my mind.

Was I only doing this out of guilty?