Come back // Hyunlix

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Chapter Twenty Nine

Felixs POV

Hyunjin didn't come back over to my house after he spoke with Ronnie, it was eating me alive inside not knowing what was said. I tried to get him to tell me but he couldn't he said he wanted to think about things before he told me. I tried to understand but the impatient part of me was eating me alive. I laid in bed all night by myself tossing and turning, looking over at the clock ever chance I got.

1AM

Still awake, my mind wouldn't shut up. Did she convenience him to leave me? Was he going to break up with me? Did she say something to make him hate me again?

3AM

Why did I let him go in the first place, I should have known. Ronnie is never an easy person to stalk to when shes mad like this. I sent him into a war he didn't need to be apart of. What am I going to do if he really does leave me.

6AM

I am the issue, I am the problem. If I had done it right three years ago I won't be here today. I am constantly looking back, always wondering what straw will break the camels back for my life to just come crashing down again. Did Hyunjin really mean it when he said he loved me or was he just playing with me, was this his elaborate way of tormenting me now? No stop it Felix you know Hyunjin don't even think like that.

7:30 AM and my alarm blare, a whole night of tossing, turning, neverending thoughts, and tears. I was completely out of it by the time my alarm went off but I knew that out of all the days to be awake and push through it would have to be today.

I sigh, looking over at my phone noticing no new texts or calls from anyone. I never felt more alone and I hated it so much. I yawn, stretching my body as I barely make it to the bathroom. Looking at myself in the mirror I wasn't shocked, the black and purple bags under my eyes. The tears that stained my face from my long night of crying. My lips burnt and chapped, I looked run down and lifeless.

I took a shower and got dress, I turned my phone on silent even with no new notifications. I grab my things and start walking down the street, stopping at a cafe I grab a smoothie and continue my way. I stopped at a floral kiosk, grabbing a few daisies and carnations. I pay and leave the stand continuing on my trek.

Walking up to the large brass gates I shivered. I hadn't been back here since I left. Ronnie let me come and say bye to mom and dad before we boarded our flight to Australia. Being here alone felt wrong but also peaceful. Pushing open the gates I make my way to their stones. It wad just rained so everything was a bit damp. I pull a towel out of my bag that I grabbed earlier, setting it down next to them. I sat down, looking around noticing how vacant the cemetery was in the morning. The fog slightly dissipating as the sun was coming out.

I set the flower down in between them, cleaning off some direct from their stones I grab my bag again. I pull out some chips as I lay down on the ground. Our bodies parallel to each other as I let out a louder sigh. "I miss you guys" I say quietly, looking up at the clouds as they pass by. I stayed there in silence, laying down and shutting my eyes. I think back to my happy memories with them, the fun we all use to have before that faithful night.

My father, he was a great dad. Always so comforting and caring even after long days at work. He was one of my favorite to people to be around, no matter what kind of day he was having he never let it show on his face when I was around. But things got bad and they got bad fast. My mom noticing his habits before she could do anything to help him. He was too far gone, almost gambling away everything he ever owned including the house. I remember the fight, the one day I hated the most.

I was getting ready for school as I heard the screaming from the room down the hall way. Ronnie comes to me and grabs our things as we make our exit for school. Leaving my mom and dad alone, I wish I never left. I went to school and my mind was on my family, Ronnie was telling me that mom wants us to be prepared for anything but I don't think she meant this. I was hiding in the closet at school as I heard him looking for me, Hyunjin. I had embarrassed him at lunch earlier hence why I was hiding from him but it didn't last long.