Ms.Not-So-Perfect [AMOURSHIPPING]

Chapter 18

Wow didn't expect so many people wanting me to update quickly, I couldn't update sooner because I've been busy. So here you go, enjoy the chapter my fellow readers :)
***(Ash's POV)

"Yeah Ash, why don't you just tell me?" I heard Serena half whisper. I couldn't see her face, since her hair was blocking my view. But I heard the sound of desperation coming out when Serena spoke, she really wanted to know, but I couldn't get myself to tell her.

I weakly got up and took my apron off, "Sorry, we gotta go." I grabbed May'a hand and took off her apron as well. The whole time I made sure not to make eye contact with Serena, I didn't want to see her expression, I didn't want to see if she was sad, mad, tired, or anything. I just want to get out of here.

She didn't move her head, just talked with her head looking down at the cupcakes she and May had made, something I didn't take part in. "I'll lead you to the the front door." Her voice raspy and cold.

May looked at me, "Why are we leaving? We need to help her clean up!" She protested, pulling her hand out of my grip. May didn't know what she had caused, the pain I felt, all of that because I was to scared my feelings wouldn't get returned. This day should've been full of happiness and smiles, but it seems like I'm ruining our friendship.

With my hands clenched by my sides, I nodded to myself, "Please do." I decided to ignore any comments May had made, knowing that in the end I would lose the battle. The little brat knew I didn't want to leave, she knew my feelings towards Serena, and she wanted Serena to properly know my feelings just as much as I did.

Serena kept quiet the whole time. All I could see was her back, I was glad I couldn't see her face. I didn't want to see her at all, but I also wanted to hug her and comfort her, say how sorry I was and tell her my true feelings. Yet, I made no move to change anything, just kept quiet with May by my side, giving side glances that I tried my best to ignore.

The tension was rough, at some point I wished May would speak up and say something, but it seemed like even she knew how difficult this was. I was too afraid to say anything, I was the one who said we had to leave, Serena just nodded and is leading us back, but everything is just so wrong. The ache in my heart, which I had tried to avoid, was now throbbing. I felt so bad for Serena, but couldn't help myself feel pity for me, knowing that's selfish I wanted to punch myself.

"Okay we're here." Serena finally spoke, but just looked at the stairs, as if they were important. I was wondering if she was crying or if she felt like crying, I have to admit that I felt like crying. I would cry into my pillow once I got home and not talk to anyone about my problems, even though I knew that would help ease the pain and sadness.

"Thanks," I really just wanted to go home and cry in my pillow. I didn't know how my voice would come out as, so I just said a simple 'thanks'. I don't think I can ever face her, putting my shoes on, knowing this would be the last time I visited her. After this sad moment, she would realize what a horrible person I am, she would find out my feelings for her, and she would hate me. She would wonder why I didn't say anything, why at some point I acted as if everything was okay, and why I tried to distance myself from her so I wouldn't have to tell her my feelings.

Worse of all, she would go back to being 'Ms.Perfect', after all, that's who she tries to be.

I finished putting my shoes on, noticing May was already done. Getting up and grabbing that my backpack, I headed towards the door. I forced myself not to look back, and to quietly say a goodbye to the honey haired girl. May also said a goodbye, giving Serena a hug before whispering something I didn't care about.

I had decided not to call my mom, knowing all the questions she would ask about today. I didn't feel like talking, May on the other hand had plenty on her mind to talk about for the both of us. I didn't know what was worse, my mom or her, either way, May thinks she's an expert in love even though she has never had a boyfriend.

The lecturing continued all the way home, I was starting to get a headache, and all the talking was annoying me. Thankfully we arrived home, I didn't even try to beg May not to tell mom, knowing she would tell her anyway. Not bothering to say anything to May I unlocked the front door and we stepped into the house.

"We're home!" I spoke. There was silence, mom was out of the house. I shrugged and clumsily walked up the stairs, May got irritated and pushed pass me to get to her room. She was defiantly mad at me, I could tell by the way she walked up the stairs and how much force she put in to close her bedroom door. 

May wasn't the only one mad at me, I was mad at myself. I couldn't show my face to Serena, not after what I did, I was scared she would ask me what was wrong, that she would beg for me to tell her what I certainly did not want to tell her. It was way to much for me to handle in one day, I decided it would be best if I rested, it wasn't even dark outside, but that didn't matter as I closed my eyes.

When I woke up, I felt a strange presence behind me. I was on my side and could feel small hands tugging at my shirt. I sat up, May was sleeping next to me, it was weird, she hadn't done that since she was 3. "May wake up," I shook her, trying my best to wake her up, but not wanted to startle her. She just groaned and rolled, so her back was facing me. "May!" I half whispered half yelled. 

"What do you want?!" She sat up quickly, rubbing her eyes. She looked up at me, then around her. Did she not know she was sleeping next to me? "You really need to decorate your room!" She slapped me behind my head. 

So that's what she was looking at, "May I'm  guy, you shouldn't expect it to be glittery and for the walls to be pink and purple." I rolled my eyes, getting out of bed. 

"Your room looks sad...." She puffed up her cheeks. "It matches your mood!" She got up and started jumping on my bed. I didn't make a move to make her stop, she was right, I was sad and so was my room.

"What time is it?" I asked May, who was still jumping up and down on my now messy bed. She shrugged, I wonder if mom's home. I looked around my room for a couple of moments before I decided it was better to go downstairs. May and I haven't eaten since this morning.

As I walked down the stairs I could hear dishes being washed, my mom was talking to someone. I didn't really pay any mind to it, knowing my mom, she was probably talking on the phone with one of her friends. 

May walked past me and entered the kitchen, "Serena, what are you going here?!" May screamed.

I stopped walking, wait was Serena actually here. But, why? I would expect her never wanting to see my face again, and now she's in my kitchen with my mom?!

"Oh May you're wake. Do you mind getting your brother?" She kindly asked May.

"Oh, but Ash was just coming down the stairs." I heard May's voice. I didn't know what to do, should I turn around and lock myself in my room or should I just casually walk in to the kitchen as if everything was fine between me and Serena. Before I could make up my mind, May poked her head into the hall I was currently at trying to figure out what to do. "Don't just stand there, come over here!" May ran out and grabbed my writs with bother her hands, dragging me into the kitchen, I now knew I didn't want to go into. 

"O-oh hey Serena, what are you doing here?" I forced a smile. I wanted to run, I wanted to run and hide in my room where I could put all my thoughts together.

"Well, apparently you forgot the baked good you guys made." My mom pointed out the trays with all the sweets May and Serena made, reminding me how horrible I had acted earlier this day.

"You didn't have to, they're your ingredients after all."I smiled again, trying to look as natural as possible. My mom sent me a worried expression, yeah better just stop smiling.

Serena dried her hands on a paper towel, "I couldn't eat them all even if I wanted to, and we all worked so hard to make them that I had to bring some over." She smiled, that smiled ruined me. She was a lair a good lair, even I almost believed her. "I really wanted to see your mom again, she's so nice and always seems so happy!" She clapped her hands.

"You're always welcome here Serena." My mom put a hand on Serena's shoulder, walking towards the table with plates in hand. "Serena please have diner with us."

Serena looked at me with worried eyes, as if she thought I would get mad if she said yes. I gulped and nodded, "Y-yeah Serena, have diner with us!"