His Little Vampire [BOOK SIX]

04.

**Jinx**

I stood in the bathroom with the door locked.
I needed a minute to collect myself from the fact that I've literally just screwed myself.
My switch was stuck.
And now there was no telling how to turn it either off or on.
Not that I'm even sure I want it completely on again..
Being emotional has mentally drained me just from today.

And to make it worse.
Not only are my eyes fucked up.

Dorian decided to tag along to find out what was wrong with me.
I didn't know what his game was.
But I really had no plans to find out.
Between him and Ricky.
I really don't know who exhausts me more.

The only thing Ricky knew about me is that I killed Oz's boyfriend and fed from other vampires, because my brothers old clan fucked my life up.
But now that he knew that little secret.
He wants me to feed from him, like the pervert he freaking is.

I closed the lid of the toilet before sitting down and placed my hands on my face, hiding as I brought my knees up and let out a heavy sigh.
I was more broken than I thought.
How was I going to go to school with my eyes like this?

Iggy was born with heterochromia, but I wasn't.
My eyes were supposed to be red.

I felt irritated as tears burned at my eyes.
Fuck this.
I leaned my head back as the tears slipped.
I didn't want to be emotional.
I didn't want to be seen as weak.

But these emotions were going to make me look as such.
And that scared me.

I know Kaiser is dead.
I knew that Rogue was dead.
So I should give myself that chance to try living my life.
But I didn't know the first thing about living.
I didn't know how to enjoy anything without feeling angry or confused.

Maybe that was why it was so easy for me to push people away.
Because I was unable to understand what actual happiness was.
As depressing as that sounds.

I looked to the bathroom door before sighing as I gathered myself up and made my way over to it.
I held onto the doorknob as my brows began to knit standing there.
I already knew everyone was still out there.
I just had to step away from it all, to try and gather my thoughts on what Rocky had been telling me.

Plus?
His mate, Jackie, was a lot for a fucking person.
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I walked back into the living room to find everyone, including Dorian, still present with their attention on me.
It made my stomach churn as I sat back down on the couch next to the other vampire, whose eyes were locked on me.

"Jinx, how are you feeling baby?" My dad questioned as I sat there, my face felt flushed before my eyes met the omegas.
"I don't know yet, I'm honestly scared to try and feel anything." I frowned.

"That's normal." Rocky spoke up as my eyes fell on him, my brows furrowed.
"You said your emotions were off before, how long did you keep them off before your switch came back on?" I asked.
Rocky stared before smiling softly.
"Not nearly five years, maybe two and a half? I was pretty rogue before the idiot next to me found me, I had massive anger issues-"

"You still do." Jackie and papa commented without looking at the other, as if thinking they would be killed for making that comment.

Rocky's eye twitched but his smile remained while looking at me.
"With your switch stuck, you'll feel confused a lot, and yes it'll be scary at times because you won't know whether to feel angry or happy." He told me.
I frowned softly.
"How long will I be stuck like this?"
Rocky studied me before he stood to his feet, pulling Jackie up with him.

"You'll be stuck until you can learn more about yourself, and who you really want to be deep inside." He walked up to me, kneeling down as he looked at me.
"If you want to feel again, work on being a better person, but if you're content being an angry teenager all of the time, don't work on anything-"