Rockstar kind of love// Nikki Sixx

Chapter 15-Be my Daddy

It was official, I was depressed. The tour was great, but I couldn't stop this gnawing feeling inside me. I struggled to keep up with all the shows. I just wanted to sleep all the time and when I was awake I just wanted to get as fucked up as humanly possible. 

Daniel could tell I wasn't myself, and as much as he tried to help, he just couldn't. I felt bad for him, he was making sure that I was eating and drinking water, but it was like I wanted the world to break underneath me and suck me into a bottomless void.

We were two weeks away from opening for Ozzy, I had some stuff written but nothing was finished. 

"Dove come on get up!" 

"Ughhhh." I groan shoving my head into my pillow.

"Come on, you'll want to see this!" Daniel tried to pull the covers off me.

"I can assure I won't." I grab the duvet back.

"That's no way to treat an old friend!" Razzle walked in.

"Razzle!" I laugh for the first time in a while.

"I've heard you've been down in the dumps love."

"I thought he could cheer you up and help you finish those songs." Daniel smiled.

"That would be great!" 

"But first food! I'm fucking starving mate!" He pats Daniels shoulder walking out the room.

"Thank you." I mouth to Daniel. Causing him to just bow sarcastically before leaving.

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 We ate some breakfast and headed to this random studio.

"Right we are not leaving until these two songs are recorded and finished." Daniel sits down handing us beers.

"Okay, I've got some lyrics, they are more upbeat." 

"Well lets hear them." Razzle takes a swig.

"You can be my daddy tonight-night-night
I'm neon phosphorescent
Open like a Christmas present, oh
You can be my daddy tonight-night-night
If you're seeking heaven
Then you wanna come and get it, get it"

Daniel just bursts out laughing. I roll my eyes.

"Hey no no no, It's actually good! It's sexy, It's new, It's well... Lupasa."

"Thank you!" I say making a face at Daniel.

"Fine it will work, but it has to have a better tune than whatever that was!" Daniel shook his head.

I just stuck my middle finger up at him.

About 6 hours later we finally had the backing track recorded for both songs. So now they were ready for Ozzy's night.

 After all that work it would only be fair to have a little party. So that's what we did, I think we were in Paris, but I really couldn't tell you...

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We were in this random club, I was so pissed and the Ketamine I scored in the bathroom was definitely making me feel loopier than usual. We were all dancing on the dance floor when this creepy blacked out guy started grinding on me and squeezing my ass. I hate men. 

"Get the fuck off!" I tried to kick him away.

"Hey, hey, hey It'd be a crime to not get a squeeze of that!" He slurred squeezing my ass again.