Rockstar kind of love// Nikki Sixx

Chapter 7 - Fuck

Daniels POV

I was just drifting off to sleep, when I heard the all too familiar 'Dove scream'. Fuck seriously. I jumped out of bed and get changed quickly. This was going to be fun...Not. As I stepped out of the room I saw a pissed off yet slightly confused Nikki- yeah he really didn't know the type of crazy he was dealing with. I warned him, you don't wanna see her upset before, but he clearly didn't listen. 

When I got into Doves room, she was trashing it. Her hair was crazy and she actually looked like a mental patient.

"Dove stop it!" I yell.

"He is such a cunt!" she throws a bottle of shampoo at the wall.

I storm over to her, gripping her arms, and shoving her onto the bed. 

"Just breathe- In through your nose... 1 2 3 4 5, and out through your mouth.... 1 2 3 4 5."

She followed the steps and started to calm down. 

"Now tell me what happened."

"All I did was tell him that we are just sleeping, and he asked me why, so I said about the groupies he had fucked and I mentioned Lita. Which caused him to snap at me."

"Right, and what did you say?"

"I told him that maybe I will tell Lita like she deserves to know. I don't know why I said that, its not like I actually ever would, but you know me if your gonna snap at me, I'll snap back."

"It doesn't sound like that bad of an argument." I was confused.

''Then he said how I'm not so innocent myself and how everything I went through has made me nothing more than a narcissistic bitch." she started to cry. I was filled with rage. That's was why she reacted like this. Nikki didn't know this but this was actually one of Doves insecurities. 

Flashback to 1991-

Me and Dove were meant to be leaving London to fly to LA. I was having second thoughts. I was scared. 

"This isn't a good idea Dove." 

"What? Yes it is, what's wrong?"

"What if it doesn't work out, we don't have to do this."I plead.

"I do! I have to, I need to make music in Hollywood and work my way up."

"But why?"

"Because if I don't make something of myself, it just means that all the damage I got, isn't good damage, It's just damage. I got nothing out of it and all those years I wanted to die was for nothing, all the abuse and neglect was for nothing. I could of had a happy childhood and been cheerful this whole time. I refuse to believe that. I need to at least try."

Her words spoke to me, I understood that this was something we had to do.

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Doves POV 

I woke up with a massive headache, and feeling so hungover.  I heard the familiar sound of Daniel's snoring. I was so used to it- that is was almost comforting to me. I suddenly started to remember flashes from last night, including mine and Nikki's argument. Fuck. I also remember Daniel coming in trying to calm me down. 

"Morning." Daniel yawned.

"Hey thanks for calming me down last night." 

"It's part of the job, can't have you going crazy. It'd be be bad for the band." He joked.