Rockstar kind of love// Nikki Sixx

Chapter 30- Us against the world

Nikkis POV

I pulled up to Doves house; flowers in hand and tail between my legs, I was eager to see her after last night. I knocked on the door and there was no answer.

It was open so I walked in.

"Hey Dove?"

"Coming!"

She came running down the stairs wet hair and white robe on. She looked beautiful.

"Had me worried there." I picked her up and swirled her around, kissing her before putting her back down.

"Sorry babe, I was just showering." She smiled "You want a cup of tea?"

"You know I can't drink that stuff." I chuckle.

We sat outside on her terrace, there was a bit of an awkward silence but I knew I had to apologise properly.

"Look I'm sorry baby. I shouldn't have lashed out the way I did." I looked down in shame.

"No Nikki you don't need to apologise." She also looked down. I could see the guilt on her own face and that's when I just knew.

"You did it again didn't you?" 

"What?"

"Smack. You did it again."

"No I-"

"Jesus stop lying."

"Okay fine, I-I did it."

"Fuck!" I stood up quickly kicking a plant pot. This was all my fault, I've ruined her time and time again. 

"It's not your fault, I would have done it anyway, I like it. I-I understand it now."

"What do you mean you understand it?" I sat back down next to her.

"Why you do it. It was like I was drowning and this is the only thing keeping me float, like a breath of air after not being able breathe."

I knew exactly what she meant. We have always been too similar when it comes to shit like this. I hated myself for it but I didn't wanna stop either. 

"We need to stop though."

"Do we?" She smirked trying to make light of the very shitty decision we were both about to make.

"I mean I don't particularly want too but I also don't want you going through this."

"I would have done this with or without you babe." She looks down again.

"I know." Deep down I knew that might not be the case, but my fucked heroin riddled brain couldn't not believe it.

Doves POV

This was working out better than I expected. The fact Nikki and I can see each others faults and still love each other is something special.

"Look I gotta run to Daniels and go over a song I wrote a few weeks ago, but speaking of Daniel. He cant know any of this."

"Yeah of course. Is that the song you you lost the notes for?"

"Yeah finally found them. Anyway I love you baby. I'll see you after okay?"

"Yeah love you too." He got up and kissed my forehead.

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The one word to describe Daniels place was 'smokey' It was filled with cigarette smoke.

"Jesus you ever open you windows?" I chuckled.

"Oh shut up, you know your just as fucked."

"Yeah you got me there."