Rockstar kind of love// Nikki Sixx

Chapter 8- never just be normal

Nikkis POV

Dove wasn't anywhere to found all day. The guilt started to fight it's way into my messed up mind, and I couldn't help regret what I had said to her. I always take things too far, I can never just be normal.

Daniel made us all look around whatever city we were in to find her. We had no luck, she was completely gone.

It was now 4.55pm and we were all on the bus. Doc was freaking the fuck out, and I hadn't seen Daniel look more worried in the entire time I've known him.

"This is your fuckin-" He went to yell at me but was cut off by someone falling into the bus. "Dove!" he ran over to her.

We all turned around to see her. She looked like shit. Her hair was crazy, her eyes were bloodshot yet she still had dilated pupils, her skin was shiny but her face was completely pale. She couldn't even stand up straight.

My heart physically hurt. I did this to her. How could I have done this to her.

"I-I'm fine, I'm fine." She slurred.

Daniel just hugged her, she's the only family he has. I felt bad for him too.

"Daniel, I don't feel so good." She stumbled.

"I kn-" Daniel went to say, but she barged past him falling into the bathroom, immediately throwing up. Daniel rushed into the bathroom with her.

Tommy and Mick gave me a concerned look. I couldn't make eye contact with anyone I was too ashamed. The bus started moving, Dove didn't stop throwing up the entire journey, there was this awkward silence the whole time making the heaving all we could hear.

She finally stopped about five minutes before we got to the venue. I could hear her brushing her teeth and washing her hands. Then she came out. She still looked very unwell but didn't seem as drunk as before. Daniel came behind her with bloodshot eyes.

She sat down at the table with us.

"You okay dove?" Vince turned to her.

She just nodded looking down.

"You think you can sing tonight?" Tommy asked.

"Um yeah, It will be alright." She went to smile, but had to run to the bathroom to be sick again. Everyone had such a concerned look on their face.

"Guys, I don't think she's going to be able to perform tonight." Daniel turns looking in the direction of the bathroom.

"Shit." Doc exclaimed.

"She clearly has taken something, or has alcohol poisoning." Mick interfered.

"I can sing." she said walking out the bathroom.

"If Dove says she can sing, she can sing." Doc looked smug. I wanted to punch him in that fat face of his, we are just puppets for people like him to earn some money.

"Can you at least tell me what you've taken?" Daniel leant in front of her.

"Um, alcohol.. um these guys were giving me lines of something, I'm not really sure what it was I lost track, It was different drugs I think, I asked for some speed before I left, I don't know if it was or not tho." she fiddled with her hands.

"Okay, and real talk, how do you feel now?"

"Mmm my stomach feels raw, and my throat is on fire but I can sing." She had a serious tone in her voice. She was trying to act as sober as she could considering everything she had taken and honestly it was working.

"Okay if you want to stop at any point you just wave at one of us, and we will get you off the stage." Vince patted her shoulder.

"Yeah we've all been too fucked up on stage before don't sweat it." Tommy smiled.