Rockstar kind of love// Nikki Sixx

Chapter 17- You love me- He wants me

The walk back to the hotel consisted of a couple falls and a lot of laughs. It was so nice to see Nikki, it was like all the sadness and shit I had going on had just disappeared. 

"So... are you really not feeling great?" I asked as walked through the hotel corridor.

"What?"

"You know, you said you weren't feeling well... thats why you left."

"Ohhh yeah...no. I mean yes I'm fine, I just-I wanted to spend time with you." He looked down. Was Nikki Sixx acting shy with me?!

"Well I'm grateful, I wanted to spend some time with you too... My room or yours?" 

"Lets do mine." He smiles.

When we entered his room, it was surprisingly cleaner than I expected, but I guess we have housekeeping to thank for that.

"So, you wanna watch a movie?" He asked.

"Yeah go on then." I take my boots off and lay on the bed. I couldn't help but notice the girls lingerie hanging of the sofa. For fucks sake!

Maybe I shouldn't confess my feelings for him. He's young, a rockstar and in his prime. I didn't want to take that from him. I was okay staying friends if it meant he could get everything he wanted. 

"What do you wanna watch? I have 'The shining' or 'The breakfast club'" He says crouched by the TV.

"Mmmm I'm feeling adventurous, lets go with The Shining." I chuckle.

"Oooo very brave." He winked.

"Shall we room service some drinks and food? I know that we already had dinner but I'm still hungry." I pout.

"I was just thinking the same thing." He sat on the bed reaching over to the phone.

We ate our Pizzas and drank some fancy cocktails. We thought it would be fun to order two of every cocktail from the menu and do like a taste test.

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The movie had finished and we were drunk and full. Just laying in the bed, I had my head resting on his chest. I was surprised he hadn't made a move as we were certainly acting more than friends, but then last time he did, I stopped him.

"So why don't you show me your new songs." He played with my hair.

"Mmmm I'll show you one but I want the other to be a surprise."

"Fine.." 

We sit up. "Hey can I use your bass?" I knew that he didn't let many people touch it, let a known play it.

"Okayyy." He rolled his eyes.

"Thank youuu" I get up grabbing it.

(Be My Daddy by Lana Del Rey)

Lying on the beach and the hot sun (yeah hot)
Yeah, I want you
If you have forgotten how to have fun (c'mon)
Well, I'll show you

You rich and I'm wishing, um
You could be my mister, yum
Delicious to the maximum
Chew you up like bubble gum
You love me, he wants me
I think I want you too

You can be my daddy tonight-night-night
I'm neon phosphorescent
Open like a Christmas present, oh
You can be my daddy tonight-night-night
If you're seeking heaven
Then you wanna come and get it, get it

I felt a bit awkward, but we were both musicians at the end of the day. He looked like he was really enjoying it. He just had this cheshire cat smile on his face that would not shift.