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I get butterflies just from reading a book—alone, with no one else around. It's a feeling that's both familiar and perplexing, a fluttering in my chest that I never fully understood.
I never knew why I felt them, but I always wondered. What if it's because of my crushes? People who I just feel attracted to or people whom I adored out of nowhere.
P.S. I never confessed to them—scared because people weren't that open or accepting towards girls who, I don't know, have a crush on another girl.
Well, don't get me wrong. I'm straight! Having a crush means adoring, admiring, or idolizing someone platonically... right? Or am I understanding it all wrong? Nah, I'm straight; at least that's what I've been telling myself ever since grade 7.
Anyway, I'm Minji, a grade 11 STEM student. Don't know why I chose that strand 'cause, first of all, it's a pain in the ass and has like about five or four types of math-based subjects.
Trust me when I say that my dream job was far away from the jobs in line with that strand.
My dream job is to become a professional, jobless person stuck inside the house with nothing else to do in life. I'm joking, of course.
To tell you the truth... I never knew what I wanted to become—what my dream was or something like that.
Okay, maybe I DID dream of becoming a doctor, but reality started to hit me when I got older and my dreams became more realistic.
I began considering things—maturely acknowledging them at the age of 14.
So I don't know why I chose STEM as my strand and made myself suffer from math. But honestly though? My grades in my math subject had always been consistent, with a grade of 90 and above.
And I meant to brag.
I attend a Catholic school near our house and just transferred this year, so I'm still getting used to the new environment.
It's been only less than a month since classes started and I'm thankful I met and clicked with someone immediately on the first day of school.
But considering it's a Catholic school, I should be worried about crushing on two girls, right? Though, I mean, I just idolize them platonically.
Ain't it sinful to idolize two people at the same time, however? And they ARE girls after all... Yeah, I feel sinful somehow. God, I'm gaslighting myself uncontrollably. Don't mind me, I'm drabbling too much, way too talkative, sorry. I've probably confused you by now, hehe.
"Good morning, my favorite person!" Hanni, the first friend I made in this school, greeted me enthusiastically.
"Morning to you too," I greeted her back casually.
Today's Monday, the start of another awfully excruciating week.
"So, what's the plan for today?" she asked.
"Study," I shrugged.
"Just that? Didn't we plan yesterday to try and get Hyein to join us during our break?"
"Oh, right! I almost forgot," I scratched my nape inevitably.
Hyein is a new student too. Although she seems intimidating, her subtle smiles suggest she's sweet.
Our classmates deemed her intimidating because first, she was our adviser's daughter, and secondly, pretty much everybody thought she was a bad bitch 'cause of her resting face.
Hanni and I thought otherwise, though. We saw her as a giant baby, too cute.
"You talk to her first later, okay?" Hanni nudged me.
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Cross Ur Mind || Catnipz
FanfictionYeah, Minji's definitely convinced she's straight, even so when she is clearly head over heels for Haerin, a classmate and a friend who's too damn dangerous for her and her poor heart (she def ain't straight).
