Random KNY one shots

I thought you loved me pt.3 | {SaneGiyuu/SaneKana}

Theme: Angst!!!

Note: ...I forgot most of what happened in the first 2 parts so it might not be completely accurate 😭

the ending was supposed to be diff but honestly I couldn't bother

Tags: @Raexlyn2Mo0n I'MSORRYFORPROCRASTINATING

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Previously:

Shock filtered through Giyuu's expression and he hovered behind the other two as they crowded around the fallen Hashira

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Kanae was dead. The news had drifted to the other Hashira in a sort of numb daze. Many Hashira in the past had died before, there wasn't a doubt about it. But this was the first Hashira of recent to have died since Gyomei had become a Hashira and it came as a shock.

Nevertheless, they had to keep going. And they had to move on.

Sanemi and Shinobu, however, were apt on not moving on. They couldn't do it. They didn't know how. And Giyuu felt like they were his responsibility now. Because he had been there when they had found Kanae, because he, Sanemi, and Kanae had been in some sort of relationship crisis right before, because Shinobu was young and Sanemi was also suffering, because he felt the need to be helpful. So he followed them around, offering to help at any chance he got and trying his best to keep them up and going. 

Then there was the question of their relationship. Whenever he thought about it, Giyuu felt guilty. For thinking about stupid things like that admist the post-death grieving. Yet his mind was somehow stuck on it and it was incredibly selfish of him to be fretting about whether or not Sanemi liked him when both Sanemi and Shinobu had lost someone so dear to them. Stupid, that's what he was. Giyuu was an idiot. So he didn't bring the topic up again, not for a while. Not until months later when Shinobu could finally flash an actual smile, though brief it was. Not until Sanemi could talk about Kanae without sounding like he was going to break that very second.

Giyuu had waited. For so long. And he hated thinking like this, thinking as if he was the victim here. But his mind refused to put it any other way. He longed to know if Sanemi could chance him a glimpse of affection once more. He longed for it, though he knew his chance was slim. There wasn't any way Sanemi could be caught up with Giyuu after the death of his girlfriend—after openly saying that he hated Giyuu, be it true or naught. But he couldn't resist asking—couldn't resist seeing if there was maybe a small part of Sanemi ready to let Giyuu in.

He asked it casually. Brought up the topic of Obanai distinctly obvious crushing and steered the conversation towards their own relationship status. But Sanemi didn't seem to get the hint, or was just pretending he didn't understand. Eventually, Giyuu opted to just outright ask, though it pained him to think back on how rude he was probably being. He couldn't help it, though. He couldn't stay in suspense for much longer. It didn't matter if he already knew he'd have little to no way of getting with Sanemi. He just needed confirmation.

In the end, he was blunt. "Do you still (still? do you, at all?) like me, Shinazugawa?" Giyuu asked.

Sanemi actually recoiled, as if the question had hit him. Giyuu couldn't tell if he should be offended or not. Then again, it was still quite random, despite the conversation's topic.

"I... In what way?" Sanemi asked tentatively. "If you mean, am I your friend, then ye-"

Giyuu wasn't one to interrupt too much, mostly because he rarely spoke, but he couldn't wait any longer. "Romantically," he corrected. "Do you?"