Before You

The First Dinner

The group all met in the lobby to head to dinner.

"What is on the menu tonight??" An eager Changbin asked. He was practically drooling already.

In celebration of our first night, I thought we could eat at an ocean side shack. Besides.. it is close to our destination of the first challenge. Chan has a menacing smile on his face that painted concern for the other members in the car.

Felix admired the sight of the ocean and the white sand beaches as they drove past the shoreline to the restaurant. The sun was slowly starting to set, and it painted the sky beautiful colors of blue, purple, pink, and orange. Felix's eyes practically sparkled at the sight, and he sighed. The reaction caught Hyunjin's attention.

"Everything OK, Lix?" He asked concerned, placing his hand gently on Felix's thigh.

"Yeah, the sky is just so beautiful." Felix continued to dreamily stare out the window. Hyunjin took out his camera and snapped a picture of the sight.

"Definitely something I will paint later" he whispered to himself. It was too quiet for anybody to head. Nobody really know that Hyunjin had a talent in art. Sure they knew he liked art and knew that he had a sketchbook that he frequently carried, but nobody had ever seen any of his drawings.

Both of the boys continued to look out the window, Hyunjin stealing glances between Felix and the sunset, finding himself drawn to the picturesque view of the Australian lost in admiration and filled with life.

They reached the restaurant right when the sun was at its peak of setting.

"Channie-Hyung. Can we please sit by the water until the sun goes down? The sunset is so beautiful!" Felix begged. Chan looked at his watch and couldn't resist the look of the cute freckled boy, as well as the additional pleas of the other band members as they agreed in Felix's request.

"I guess we have some time. Alright, we can stay and watch for 10 minutes" before Chan could even finish his sentence the members were halfway down the beach, well the maknae line ans Changbin were. Hyunjin, Minho, ans Chan trailed behind, softly chuckling at the adorable excitement of their other members.

"They really are something aren't they?" Minho said, specifically looking at Jisung and Jeongin, who were now skipping hand in hand and plopped down in the sand staring up at the ground.

Chan smiled with pride and Hyunjin smiled too. His attention was caught by Changbin who picked up Felix in his arms and ran with him along the beach, the younger trying to wriggle out of his grasp.

The oldest 2 just chuckled but Hyunjin's smile dropped. He started to clench his teeth and pinch the fabric of his jeans.

"What's up with you man?" Minho's question snapped Hyunjin out of his rage and he just shrugged his shoulders.

"Just hungry. I think I'll go get us a table" Hyunjin started making his way back toward the restaurant. Minho furrowed his brow. He knew that Hyunjin was like this but lately he had been softer. He brushed it off and shrugged at Chan, who called the rest of the guys over.

Changbin put Felix down and the 2 came up to the restaurant laughing. Felix was playfully squeezing Changbin's biceps when they entered in. Hyunjin rolled his eyes at the sight.

"They have a table ready for us." He coldly said, as he stood up from the bench he was waiting on. Chan greeted their waiter, and everyone followed suit. This time, Felix decided to sit by Jisung and Changbin. He was aware of the distance the older was keeping but didn't want to ask what was going on, at least not here. He also felt the pointed glares his way and thought it best to avoid upsetting the older further by interrogating.

Felix felt uncomfortable with the glares he was receiving for what felt like all night. 'What did I do..?' Felix became increasingly uneasy and at some point decided enough is enough. He got Hyunjin's attention which didn't take much effort and signaled for him to follow.

"Guy's ill be back, bathroom." Is all Felix said before getting up and leaving the table. Hyunjin rolled his eyes and excused himself as well.

Once they were near the restroom Felix pulled Hyunjin in. Hyunjin was taken by surprise at the strength and dominance of the younger one, he was usually so sweet but the pull was aggressive this time.

"What is your problem with me today?" He sternly asked.

"What do you mean? I don't have an issue with you." Hyunjin stated blankly.

"Bullshit, you have been sending eye daggers at me ever since we got in the restaurant. What did I do..?" Felix's voice trailed off to a softer more vulnerable one and his eyes softened. He looked scared now. 

Hyunjin visibly softened at the sight of the once intimating Felix becoming more vulnerable. He didn't know why he was upset. He knew what made him upset, but he didn't know why it was making him upset. All he knew was that it wasn't fair.

"I'm sorry Bokie, it's nothing. You didn't do anything." He smiled at him softly and placed his hand on Felix's cheeks, rubbing it gently with his thumb, causing the younger one to visibly relax.

"Are you sure?" Felix's voice was completely vulnerable now and you could tell the fear was building up. He was terrified of having done something to upset Hyunjin, especially unintentionally.

Hyunjin nodded and pulled Felix into a hug. "I promise, it's not you. Just don't want to get into it." He whispered in their embrace. Felix was still concerned and wanted to talk more but he knew this was not the place to get into it.

Felix nodded into his shoulder and the 2 returned back to the table, just in time for their food to arrive. Hyunjin remained distant during the dinner but felt better overall. He knew that he had been jealous. He is not an idiot and he knows himself. He couldn't help it. He was frustrated because he knew he had no reason to he jealous.

'We are friends, he is not going to ditch me for Changbin. You have no reason to be jealous, control yourself Hwang'