A parallel universe

Chapter Twenty Two

Olivia sat at one of the desks in the squad room, her head in her hands as she thought of the best way to tell him, but really anyway she told him it would break him. 
"I for one, would like to know what is going on here" McGrath muttered, making Liv's blood boil already. 
"Give her a minute" Fin ordered gently. Liv let out a shaky breath before she cleared her throat. 
"His name was William Lewis, and he was a psychopath" Fin scoffed.
"Psychopath doesn't even come close"  
"Rollins picked him up for flashing in the park. Amaro and I interrogated him because there was something off about him. He'd burned his fingerprints off and said it was an accident. Something was off about him and he let it slip" She explained slowly "I told him that I wanted to know what he did to his other victims, because someone like him has hurt others before. The way he said it with that cold, dead, look in his eyes. As much as I could see the evil in his, he saw the pain in mine. I think that was when he decided that I would be next" Liv took a breath to stop the tears from running over "The judge released him on the flashing charge and the first place he went was to the woman's house that had caught him on camera. Cragen sent me home that night, he said to take two days and if he saw me back in the squad room before then he'll have me arrested" She took another deep breath "I ran to the store before I went home. I was unpacking my groceries and I heard a noise so I went to look. He came around the corner with a gun, mine was still on my hip but I hesitated and he pistol whipped me across the face" She explained with a heavy sigh. 
"What did he do to you?" El asked, but Liv could hear the apprehensiveness in his voice. 
"When I woke up tied to my bed with my pants around my ankles, I thought he was going to rape me, but instead he came into the bedroom with a hot pan before he pressed the keys against my thigh. The cigarette burns were next. He kept pulling on my hair so I cut it after. He made me watch him rape an torture his lawyers mother. He wouldn't let me close my eyes or look away because he would burn her with cigarettes, but he'd forced sleeping pills and alcohol down my throat. I tired to stay awake, I tried so hard. One move, lights out" Her voice broke and she cleared it, wiping away the tears that had escaped her eyes "He shot a twenty year old traffic cop on the way to this beach house. He-" She stopped again, unable to get the words out. 
"Liv, let me-" Fin tried but she kept going. 
"He let me use the bathroom but only because he wanted 'a look of what's to come' he said. He...he pushed two fingers inside of me before he pulled my pants back up. I couldn't- I was handcuffed, I couldn't stop him. He cuffed me to the bed and left to get rid of the car, I tried to break free but I couldn't. When he got back, he climbed on top of me and put my gun in my mouth and I begged him to let me live. Two days apart, I begged a psychopath to kill me and let me live" She managed to scoff through tears "He asked if I wanted my clothes cut off or burned off. He chose to cut. A maid and her daughter were supposed to clean the house for the owners so he locked them in the other room, intending to rape me and escape before the police could get there. I asked if he was man enough to do it, so he wasn't looking when I got the bar free from the bed. I knocked him out and handcuffed him to the end of the bed before I let the maid and her daughter out. I told her to leave, that immigration would take her daughter away from her" She paused and Elliot could see the pain in her eyes even though she avoided his "I was going to kill him. I told him what my old partner would do to him. He wanted to talk about her father's but I was done listening to him talk. I pointed the gun at him and he told me to do it but I couldn't. Shooting him was the easy way out. He didn't deserve the easy way out, he needed to feel just a bit of what he made me feel. So I picked up the rod and I hit him with it, and again, and again, and again. And I watched him bleed out for twenty minutes. I waited until I thought he was dead. It felt like he'd lived just to spite me" 
"And the trial?" Anaya asked and Liv scoffed.
"He was found not guilty on my attempted rape and my kidnap. And I was questioned about beating him within an ich of his life. He represented himself just to get under my skin" 
"That sounds-"
"That's only the first half of the story" Liv told her. 
"He kidnapped you twice?" McGrath spoke up. 
"Technically he only kidnapped me the first time because the second time I escaped my protection detail and went to him to stop him from raping a twelve year old girl who's family he killed just to get to me" 
"What did he do to you that time?" Anaya asked. 
"He pulled at my hair, took my gun and my vest, then drove me to an abandoned building. Amelia had her wrists duct taped in one corner whilst he tied me to a table. Bent me over the table is more accurate" Elliot's jaw twitched "He reached for my belt and I told Amelia not to look. I told him to do what he had to do. I'd watched him before, I knew that it was the fight that got him off, so I didn't fight him" Olivia admitted gently "He couldn't do it. He couldn't do it because I refused to fight him"
"You told a psychopath, a rapist to rape you?" McGrath asked. 
"Don't mistake my knowledge of sex crimes as me giving myself to him. I knew he couldn't do it if I didn't fight him. I had to protect Amelia" He nodded "We played Russian roulette instead. He untied one of my hands and made me point the gun at my own head as he held mine on me. The last bullet was meant to be mine but he pointed the gun at his own head and said that it would be the last thing that I see. His body hit the ground and the next second Amaro was untying me and Fin was checking for his pulse" 
"He was dead Liv. I made sure after everything he did to you" She nodded. 
"I know, but why is the monster from my nightmares coming back to haunt me?"