Bini: In Parallel Universe

XXIV: It Ends With Us

Colet's POV

Sometimes, there will be a person who will come and knock all your senses unexpectedly. Someone who will leave a mark of experiences and scars of bad and good memories. That someone whom you can't imagine you fell in love with; and someone who will give you the whole definition of love.

In my case, it was my ex - Jhoanna Robles.

 

She was the epitome of cloud 9 and my downfall. We used to be best friends and rant buddies before we both fell unexpectedly. It was actually funny how I found out that I was already falling for her.

One day, I went to her room to wake her up but instead of waking her up, I ended up staring at her for God knows how long. My heart started beating fast and loud - it was aching but it brought me a good feeling. I lost my sanity and the last thing I knew, I kissed her. She then woke up and held me closer and that ... that's how we sorted things out.

The first few months was full of butterflies, rainbows, I was in cloud 9. All the late night walks, late night sleepovers, dates, and corny stuffs we talked about was like a daydream. But when we reached 5 years, the nightmare started to came in. We fought and we had a lot of misunderstandings. One thing led to another before we called it quits.

And here I am now, sitting awkwardly across her after 2 years of zero communication. Closure? I have no idea. She just sent me a message saying she wanted to talk to me and we agreed to meet up.

"Hi, I guess?" she started awkwardly. Giving me her unusual shy smile.

"Talk." I answered shortly, not wanting to make the conversation longer.

"I wanted to apologize for letting you slip away just because of the small misunderstanding we had." she genuinely said.

"Why apologize if it was 2 years late?" I asked.

"Because I am still regretting it until now. I was too coward to even approach you before." she reasoned out.

"You know I'm still thinking, if you said that night that you don't want us na, it'll be easier for me to process." I answered.

"Colet, I can't lie about my feelings for you. I love you but we were becoming toxic together. I can't watch us suffering together that time." a tear drop falling from her eyes. As much as I wanted you to wipe it off for her, I stopped myself from doing it. I'm not in the position to do that anymore.

Her voice cracked as she tried to speak. "I thought it was for the best to do but I'm barely surviving for 2 years now." she added. "It was so hard, Colet. It was hard without you." she said.

I can't even utter words. I feel like I'll break down once I did say something to her. I'm just watching her trying to open up and speak what's her heart is saying. It pains me to see the person I treasure the most being like this.