He's So Hot / Hyunlix /

14 - All about Eun

Note:
Eun is an imaginary person and is not based on any idol.
Thank you for reading this note.

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A cell phone screen lights up, alerting Felix he's getting a call from Hyunjin.
Of course it had to happen right as he took a bite of food, so he swallows quickly and answers the call:

- Hi!!!

- Hi Felix! What you doin tomorrow?

- Nothing!

- Want to hang out? Dinner?

Felix punches air in excitement, and jumps on his feet a few times, but then he quickly calms down, before Hyunjin changes mind.

- Yesss! Yes!
I mean, I do.

- Good. Where do you live? I can come to your part of town.

- Oh I'll come to you, just say where.

- I'll send you details later.

- Can't wait!

- Cute.

- You can also delete my messages from last night, I was drunk and wasn't thinking...

- I don't want to delete any of it.

- Oh good, I was worried..

- You still think I'm hot?

- I do.
So. Damn. Hot.

- Good. See you tomorrow.

- Definitely.

Felix then ends the call and starts jumping, running around, and scaring the heck out of Oreo.

Hyunjin, on the other side of the call, clicks his tongue, satisfied with the little affair he's planning.
Once that's over, he'll tell his boyfriend they're even, and they can just move on from this limbo they've been stuck in.

In a way, he hates being unfaithful.
But that image of Eun covered in someone else's kisses, bites, bruises... still haunts him. He just can't delete it from his memory.
And their love story is too strong to be erased even with the dirt that Eun spilled on it.

Eun is the name that Hyunjin gave to his lover, so he doesn't accidentally let his full name slip. Eun has always been famous, even when Hyunjin was merely a trainee. And yet, this famous global idol, three years his senior, noticed Hyunjin and invited him to his place.

Hyunjin was so nervous that day. He had barely a thousand fans and a few videos on youtube which was not even comparable to Eun's millions and millions of fans and views.
He still remembers how much time he spent picking up that perfect outfit for their first date... He ended up borrowing something from Chan, and even colored his hair the morning before the date, to look older, cooler.

Hyunjin always knew he liked men, but he didn't consider himself gay. True, that's an awkward thing to say, but he didn't completely dislike girls. He just never had a chance to kiss a guy and compare it. But he wanted to.

When he came over to Eun's glamorous place, and when they were all alone, for no professional reason whatsoever, he just prayed that Eun would be gay and that he would found him attractive.

The prayers were answered and Eun kissed him that same night. He looked at Hyunjin's eyes with adoration, and he couldn't believe his luck. He asked himself, how is it possible that this global star, a music king in front of me, finds me attractive?

Much later, Eun admitted that he was terrified Hyunjin would turn him down and tell everyone he tried to kiss him. Maybe Eun was even more scared, because he had so much to lose.
He's been watching Hyunjin's videos in secret for months, following his ig account religiously, longing for him, until he couldn't just watch any more.

He found out who Hyunjin's manager was, and came up with some stupid collaboration story, just to finally get them in a same room. And then he asked Hyunjin to come over for a dinner. At his place.

That first night, they only kissed. The chemistry between them was strong but they were scared to go beyond kiss. Hyunjin spent night at Eun's place, and they ended up talking and cuddling all night long.
The next day, Eun confessed his feelings. He could't wait any more.

- I really like you, Hyunjin.

And Hyunjin wanted him badly, he didn't need any encouragement. But he never dated a guy before and was too embarrassed to admit it. He didn't want to sound inexperienced, or to be uncool in front of him.

Eun somehow knew this. He always knew how to read him.
- I know it can be scary, with a guy for the first time. If you want to, of course. If you don't want it, that's ok too. I'm still glad we spent this night just talking and I'm happy we met.

- I want it so fucking much.
You have no idea.

And so Hyunjin didn't go home for the next two days. That one weekend was the weekend when he fell in love, learned about gay sex, learned what it means to switch, and that his life would never be the same again.

Once that special weekend was over, they didn't get to see each other again for weeks. They both belong to their companies, and whatever company wants - they have to do.

But each time Eun's plane touched Seoul ground, he'd call Hyunjin and reserve every second of his free time, he only wanted to be with him. He was in love. Like never before.

Fans never figured out that certain songs Eun sang on a stage were dedicated to Hyunjin, that he sang about his hot body, his sweet skin.
Even though girls and boys all around the world worshiped him, he never wanted anyone else but Hyunjin.

So what went wrong?

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