Shadows into Light

My Beloved sun.

I had looked back at this poem and had decided to add more to it ( ENJOY!!!!! )

You did nothing but show me your love and friendship
I’ve laughed and smiled
Something i had only remembered doing when i was merely 2 or 4 years old
My childhood render invalid from me
A part i remember so clear beating and stabbing in such an a austere way
So carefree
You freed me
But you were taken from me
Now i'm looking at you through these metal pipes
When will I see my sun again?
No not that sun you might believe i am referring to
But the sun that exists only to me
The sun that had started healing my open wounds and healed scars
The sun. . that makes me feel more human than a computer
The only misfortune is that, the same sun that had recognized me
Was now taken from me
And i scroll through all my memories like files
Only to find that there is an corrupt one
Causing me to malfunction
I now have a virus in me
And it is delving deeper into my soul
Tears now fall further from my face and onto the ground
As i continue to wait for my sun
My beloved sun i hope you wait for me too
I hope that as u rotate to wherever you may drift off to
That you think of me too
That you may drift away and shine brightly
Your sweet warmth blankets everyone you revolve around
So close
But reality keeps you far
Your shine radiates like no other
Life follows wherever you go
Flowers blossom
Flower fields form
Beauty arises from you
May you bring the same brightness you gave me
Onto others my lovely sun
The corrupt files are duplicating
Now i find myself reminiscing
Streams now formed
They rush aggressively
Taking form as they roll down
Because now i ask myself
Will my sun remain shining as bright with others
As she did with me
We were euphoric together
You were flammable
And i was the flame
Before the fire spreaded throughout you
I was a calm tide
You were my shore
I’m held at gunpoint
Stuck with my own thoughts
Decisions
Choices
“ staying causes misunderstood pain “
“ Leaving may let us heal our wounds “
Two symphonies trying to harmonize along each other
Only to fail to realize
We are not all meant to
You needed someone there
Someone to love and care for you
You needed the attention that was taken from you