I am in disbelief
In denial at giving thought to what others might say
" You'll love someone else just as much as her "
" Or even more "
I"m better off in denial
To believe i could love someone else
Like getting a heart transplanted for the one i may have that is fully encrypted by you
Touching your skin
Captivating your body with this sight of mine
Hearing your vocal cords strum inside of your throat located right above your windpipe and behind your esophagus
Smelling your lubricated scents that oh so ever sweetly glaze upon your smooth mesmerizing skin
Taste every single fold of your beautifully made rose petal down to the lips that have perfectly developed on your face
Baby i came to you first
But you made sure I'd stay as your last.
A sudden dose of shock
" What is this? "
Aware of what it is
I'm once again in your touch of denial
" huh... "
Once again i deny myself of reality
Until *snap* *snap* *snap* " snap out of it silly "
I've overlooked the simplicity of it?
" Am I really in sudden shock " ?
Your love being the sense of element i'd withstand
Her love
The only way i was able to vacate
The very black sea that i had drowned myself in
The drowning tides i created
You pulled me out
But at the cost of my own uncertainty
Pulled into what is now your territory
The only denial here
Is the files inside of my head
I press " Move to trash "
Only to see
" Unable to perform this action, try again later "
I stand there anchored into the earth's surface
Engulfed only by you
I deny no more
Pulled out at the cost of
" She really loves me?.. "
" She really didn't do this?.. "
" What is this?.. "
" What are you doing to me?.. "
I create my own optical illusions
Like a mime I'm trapped in my own world of uncertainty
Only to realize
My bad thoughts linger for far too long.
It isn't the disbelief that i question
It's the absurd appalling realization That " they " love me.
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Shadows into Light
PoetryThere is no certainty with this story it is about an individual aka me writing poetry helping express their emotions experiences and moods they feel towards a situation or a person who will ever know?
