Written By Emotions

At The Very Least

It has always been my greatest fear...

Coming from someone who's not afraid of the dark, because i have been alone in the dark,

Someone who's not afraid of paranormal activities, because if they were real I at least have some presence around me even tho I can't see them,

Someone who's not scared of insect bites, because at least they found me and chose me to be bitten,

Someone who's not afraid of spiders, because they were in the corners of my ceilings when I have silently wrote red lines on my wrists

Someone who's not afraid of snakes, at least they are somewhere near me to sneak up on me

Someone who's not afraid of the thunder and lighting, because they made sounds and showed me glimpse of lights when everything else was silent and dark.

Someone who's not afraid to die, because at least i would be lying or sinking or hanged somewhere not having to know what to know, not having to see what to see, not hearing what to hear, not feeling what to feel, I wouldn't know if I'm in peace

But i know everything would stop. I don't need to have what i need.