me and him (atsushi x dazai)

chapter 22 holy shit he tried to kill himself

BAHAHAHAHAHHA SOO REMEMBER WHEN I SAID THERE WAS GONNA BE MENTIONED OF SUICIDE??? YEAH SO HERE WE GOOO AND THE GOOFY NICKNAMES ARE COMING BACKKKKKKK

TW: SUICIDE, DAZAI BEING A DUMBASS

kunikida pov

I was sitting next to a hospital bed of my friend who decided it was a good time on the 14 of February to kill himself, thankfully it didn't work his dumbass didn't tie the rope right and his sister found him hanging like he was a playground swing,

As someone who tried to off themselves I call nooses sayori ropes and Mari ropes and silly things so I can act like nothing is happening and I'm going to the park in the sky or underground

His sister couldn't come because she had to tell there family back home what happened and then get one of her friends to watch the dog, Which could be done in 1 hour but it's been 3 hours by now, and my pen is halfway out of ink while I write this Down on my notes and my notes has more things to do

But dazai woke up thankfully he did because his sister was having a panic attack while telling atsushi, chuuya, akutagawa, any other of his friends what happened and said he could come and he did but it took 47 minutes because his daughter? Sister thing needed to be watched

And his boyfriend? Wasn't there for some reason, atsushi said he was on a trip to see family, and milo said he was cheating on him because no one leaves there love one on Valentine's

But milo needs to shit the fuck up because he doesn't even understand love even though he had been in 59 relationships with people who bearly talk to him

And oh my god I am writing to much but who gives a fuck and dazai is falling back asleep and some random kid with yellow hair is in here

Dazai pov because BRO I AIN'T ABOUT TO BE IN THE NERD EMOJI POV

I woke up and saw Kunikida next to me and I started to remember what happened

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"Ughhhh valentines" I groaned

I hated valentines day everyone had someone and people who didn't were out with friends or family, or even buying themselves something, I was going to ask my sister to go to a cafe but people would think we're dating

I hate this day so much without my little atsushi touch I can't do anything, it's so tiring to do anything now, without anyone, without no one who cares about you, no one to be with you until the end

It sucks, I look at the picture of me and atsushi that we took when we were at a park a few months ago, I just wanted him back, but Ross is there and touching MY atsushi

But back to the point I fucking hate valentines, the thing that wants me is death, and I'll give it to them, if I can find that dang rope

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Now that I realized where is my sister, she isn't here with me or by my side like normal

"Your sister is telling your family what happened" Kunikida said

I nodded as someone open the door, it was atsushi, I wanted to get up and hug him but my legs were to weak and my body wasn't being to nice to me

But atsushi gave me a hug and I smiled as I get to feel his warm body, I completely forgot why I was in the hospital

Bro this doesn't feel like 595 words it feels like 4000 words because of fucking kunikida

Feeling atsushi warm body makes me feel funny like hard but that's normal? Right?, any another time I'm next to him I don't get hard, unless he is wearing something but that's it,

He let go and now I feel emo like akutagawa hairline I mean his hair has been pulled on, in both ways in both ways, and my sister came in running to me and giving me a hug

I like her hugs mainly because it's my sister. She has the best hugs like THE BEST HUGS if you never meet her you'll love her hugs

But I want atsushi, I want his attention and his love, but then again I'm in the hospital for a suicide attempt again, all because I am lonely and want to feel death, and other things

I noticed that kunikida left, he ain't really the best but he still cares, even if he has 1000+ things to do and say, and the akutagawa and chuuya walked in, they said hi and didn't say anything else

Akutagawa hair was messed up, look like it's been pulled on and he has bite marks maybe by chuuya who knows, my sister got a call and walked out to take it, milo came in and threw a rat at me as soon as he saw me

"Hermano, si querías suicidarte tenías que orar y luego morir, maldito perro marrón." He blunt out at me

Dumbasse rat clown that has a voice of a 9 year old child who started their period while there were in gym class who had blood going down there legs and kids laughing at them when they ran out to go to the bathroom needs to stop talking taco Bell

Atsushi had to grab milo before he could actually kill me and probably drag me to hell, milo was funny and silly to be around but gawd daum he is annoying as H.E.L.L., milo tried to get out of atsushi arms but was to weak to, and then he fell asleep

He looks peaceful, but then again he was going to kill me, which I would like but also not right now

But all things come to a end and halfway every other left but atsushi and milo, akutagawa and chuuya left and so did my sister, atsushi stayed by me and I love that I want to talk but my throat was dry and it's hurted it would probably be better if he kissed me and then.... Never mind.

Once it hit 10:52 he got up and picked up milo,

"I better get going" he said

I nodded and before he left he gave me a kiss

"Don't do that again, I love you"

And just like that he left.

OKAY SO I REALIZED THAT CHARACTERS AREN'T RLLY TALKING, SO I MIGHT HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THAT, ANYWAYS

GO LISTEN TO STOP LOVING ME BY TUV IT'S FIREEEEEEEE

And happy valentines/the 14th of February on 2024

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