My Mysterious Husband

Questions I Badly Wanted to Answer

Chapter Thirty:

"What are you thinking?!" Norward madly asked me as soon as he came to my house.

I just stay here at my house ever since my love was gone and it was all because of me. She died in my hands and I couldn't do anything to save her. That makes me feel so guilty and makes me miserable as the days goes by without her by my side.

I am lost. I have no reason to continue to live but because I am a Vampire, an Immortal. I cannot die not unless someone stake me through my heart, and then I will die.

"I want to die." I simply said almost to myself.

"Haimon! Get some grip! Remember, you promise Siara that you'll wait till she returns so stick to it and--"

"Put me into slumber." I said as I cut him off. "And wake me up if she will soon reincarnate."

"Haimon!"

"Please, Uncle. Just this one, help me to at least forget. Let me sleep and wake me up as soon as Siara will reborn again. I just cannot live without her by my side. So please, I beg you. Let me do what I want." I pleaded so eagerly and so badly because this is the only way to let me at least forget the pain and sorrow I carry.

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Present...

As I left my husband, Haimon at the living room, I don't know why I feel at ease soon I got away from him. I know and I can sense it, he had doubts about my answer but he chose not ask and he just let me. And I feel fine.

Though thinking of tomorrow that will come, I don't know what I should do or what I should react when I face him. The truth, I am afraid to ask him directly. Afraid if he will deny the truth. Afraid if he will continue to lie. Afraid that one of this day, he will just attack me and drink all my blood. But then, thinking of our one-year relationship, not even ones'. He never hurt me physically because even though I could feel and see how much he loves and cares me I could not deny one true fact. He hurts my feelings.

We kiss. To the point of surrendering myself to him but in the end, he will always stop leaving me hanging for a hope that I wanted. It can't be said that it's bad to expect to make love with the person you love, especially since we're married, so he has the right to claim me. Consume our marriage, to fulfill our vows that we both said in front of God and our love ones.

One year of our marriage, he fulfills his duty as my husband, my friend and best friend, my savior and protector but never my lover. We always begin to kiss, till it deepens, making me breathless. As he slowly slides his hands all over my body, giving me waves of warmth that slowly melts me to my core. Every time our simple kiss turns to a passionate kiss, I couldn't deny it, he can melt me down to my core. Each of his warmth touches, makes me burn through deep, making me shiver deep down to my core and I could feel him too.

He cannot deny it, as his breath slowly getting heavier, his kisses and touches differs every minute. I can feel his body heats up and I could even feel his thing under my garments harden but then it was him who will stop. Mysteriously, he stops and I don't know how he can manage to do that in the midst of our passionate making.

I couldn't even understand him. That hurts me, which hurt me through deep. Making me feel so upset in the end but then, for some reason, I was always end up losing consciousness. The emotions that I feel slowly drains away as my mind slowly rest, as if someone ordering me to rest and forget all the pain and sorrow that I feel.

Never to feel it all as if, I just forgiven him. Simply forgiven him, and just understand him. But why? I always end up asking myself. I love him so much I marry him even though our relationship was too unexpected. Even my family and friends told me to think about it first when I decided to said yes to his proposal. But I didn't listen and just do what my heart told me to do. And now, one year passed by and yes. I am his wife.

From Ms. Shu Tokino Croosalba to Mrs. Shu Tokino Del Gazini, a very promising name that everyone envies but no one knows what I am going through with this marriage. Yes, I am very lucky to be the wife of Mr. Haimon Del Gazini the richest and famous in Sky City but no one knows I am unlucky. Because my husband never fully trusts me, as he hides more secrets that I never knew I am involved with.

Secrets that I couldn't even think if it is really true! Vampires? What was that? Are they even real? But, how can I explain those eyes? Those eyes that I saw from Kanik, was that really real?

I really don't know what else I should think! Or what else I should believe! Kanik even told me that I'm also one of them. Then, if I'm one of them, what about my parents, are they also Vampires? But they are normal. Also, they can even walk under the sun even Kanik and Haimon can. Then, what was that?

Ahh! I wanted to scream if only my husband wasn't here, I will shout just to release all these emotions that build up on me. But I cannot and it makes me go crazy as the time goes by. I cannot rest not until I find the truth!

But the question is will Haimon honestly tell me the whole truth?

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Jr.