The Model Couple

🌻 Chapter 48

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It seems like a no-brainer that I would tell Ry 'yes' to being his girlfriend. He's so sweet. He makes me feel safe. He is patient and smart. Not to mention his good looks and scrumptious abs. When he looks at me I still melt into a puddle.

But... of course there is a but... I really don't want to mess this up. 

Honestly, I'm kind of a walking disaster right now. I just got out of an intense relationship that I'm still recovering from. I've been single for two days since the third grade. I haven't been able to deal with my recent traumatic experiences. I don't even have my normal support system since my parents turned their back on me. I think I probably should figure out myself for the moment before I'm ready to commit to someone else. So I think I want to wait a bit. Ry is so patient and understanding that it made me just want to say 'yes' right away. He told me to take my time and that he would be waiting when I'm ready. I think I'm already falling for him. Or maybe I fell a long time ago and wasn't able to admit it to myself.

I look at the photoshoot schedule and despite their warnings, every model got two photoshoots. Mine are with Hayden and Ralph. I'm so excited because Cinna picked Haydie and I to photograph. He also picked Ry and Alexis but I don't want to dwell on that. Hayden is meeting with Cinna right now so they can plan the shoot. I didn't realize that 'Men's Choice' meant they got input about the photoshoot also. I wonder if next week will be 'Women's Choice.'

I'm not sure how I feel about Ry doing a photoshoot with both Alexis and Chrissy this week. I don't even want to know which one of them he picked. Hayden came right out and told me he picked me, which made me soooo happy.

While the boys are off planning photoshoots, all of us girls are laying on lawn chairs on the beach. We had to decide whether we wanted to lay by one of the pools or down at the beach. Rough life. The Mexican couple comes down the cement stairs with delicious trays of snacks for us. I really like the sliced Jicama with salt and lime juice. So yummy.

After we've had our snack, Rhiannon comes by. "Advantages are individual this week. I'll take you one by one to the gazebo for interviews then you will go to Chris in the main house for the advantage competition. Brooklyn, you're up first."

We settle into the shade of the gazebo and Rhiannon wants predictions about who will win, feelings about being in the top half now that ten are gone, reactions about being paired up with Hayden and Ralph. 

Thank goodness it's nothing like the seemingly endless questions she had last night about my relationship with Ry and why I almost switched to Andy. Why Ry and I seemed to be avoiding each other but then after the festival we were holding hands. If I saw a future for us. If I felt bad about breaking up with my boyfriend. Why I broke up with my boyfriend.

Ugh. It's actually not easy to be continually vague. I tried to be positive and interesting but I really didn't want to share a lot of personal information with the world. I know, I signed up to be on a reality show, but I had no idea my boyfriend of nine years was going to cheat on me. Or that I was going to meet the most beautiful, sweetest guy ever.

I smile at that thought. Ry is really, really good looking. Probably the most handsome man in the world. When he looks at me with his penetrating blue eyes, I get nervous flutters in my tummy. But he's also super sweet. With his good looks, you'd expect him to be arrogant and snobby. And I know he comes off that way because he's quiet. But nothing could be farther from the truth. He had a rotten childhood, which was only made worse by his aversion to touch. But now when he holds me... mmmm.

"Brooklyn."

And those kisses on my neck last night. Gosh those were really nice. I didn't want him to stop.