Before We Were Fifty

Chapter 11

**Darkness**

I don't know when I exactly fell asleep, but it must've been after crying over Stella's message, because I never texted her back. the only light the looms in my dark trailer is from a street lamp outside, giving an orange glow to the inside of this tin can. Pain. That's all I feel. How could I have been so stupid as to fall for him? To let him scar me as if I was merely clay- am I that impressionable? My phone goes off and the glow of the light reveals several texts. Some from Stella, some from Sam, and some from an unknown number. Looking through Stella's messages, I just feel worse.

Dakota, it's all over the news!

Did you talk to him?

What about Lukas?

Are you even going to answer me?

Rubbing my eyes, I hate this whole fucking thing. Going to Sam's messages, they just get worse.

Dakota, we need to talk about your behavior today.

What's going on?

Jamie is worried about you and we all want you to come out of your trailer.

More tears gush from my eyes as I delete her messages. I don't want to know what Sam's going to say. Will it even matter? She can't take away my pain. Finally going to the unknown number, I don't want to know who it was, but I have a very good guess.

Why are you acting like this?

Dakota, you need to grow up and talk to me.

Listen, you're not the only one with stuff going on, so you need to meet me at Rhode's Cookery tonight at 7:00 so we can talk.

I take it you're not coming. Fine, just tell me what's wrong and we can work through this.

Shutting my phone off, I throw it at the small couch and roll onto my stomach. I'm not talking to anyone about how foolish I am. I'm not opening up, because I don't need to be looked at as irrational. I cry myself back to sleep and only the solace of Lukas at home with my Mom and Stella makes me feel remotely better.

The next morning I wake up to puffy eyes and a runny nose. Had I been crying in my sleep? Apparently so. My body is stiff from tightening my body around my pillow. chilled is my skin for sleeping in only Jamie's shirt- which I immediately throw off my body and try to forget the smell of him. Getting up, I head to the small kitchen and start some coffee before heading into my single shower and letting the semi-warm water run down my aching body. What about Dulcie? She needs me, right? She called me Mommy, but will I be replaced by Eloise or someone else? Poor Dulcie- one mother taken away, the other pushed- will she ever know a mother's love?

Toweling off and finding some clothes,bI dress and grab my cup of coffee, before going to my phone in the couch. I have no new messages and that makes me smile- just a bit. A notification comes across my screen for E! App and of course, I'm more than compelled to answer it.

September 30th, 2015

Inside source had confirmed that Eloise Mumford and Jamie Dornan- co-stars for Fifty Shades of Grey- are expecting their own bundle of joy. As recent pictures of these friends on a romantic evening late September 26th arose, now the story is changing. Inside source stated that these two had been seeing each other since before Warner and Dornan got divorced and that this pregnancy is just the tipping point.

No current details or words from either Dornan or Mumford have confirmed this pregnancy, but all signs are pointing to yes, with this picture of Dornan and Mumford outside Bottles and Cribs- a Vancouver family business that caters to pregnant woman and young families. More on this story as it develops.