Before We Were Fifty

Chapter 4

**TWO YEARS LATER**

Sitting in my trailer, I am so tired of this process. I can't possible take any more monologues with wanna be Christian Greys! I have done my fair share of acting and to be dooped by Charlie Hunnam for no good reason, is beyond ridiculous. I've laid low for two years now and this is my first shot at being a big time actress. This is my break- even if it is a little uncouth. I took two great years off to raise Lukas and calm my nerves- I'm not going to lay down and be used as a dormat. I want a Christian Grey and I want him now!

"Dakota, we have our final reading before we make our decision. Do you wanna sit this one out?" Sam Taylor Johnson- director of the Fifty Shades of Grey movie- pops her head into my trailer and I put on a fake smile.

"Oh, please get started without me. I'll be there as soon as I'm done checking up on Lukas."

"Of course. Take yer time." She shuts my door and leaves me to my small ounce of sanity I have left. Picking up my phone, I call my mother, who is vacationing in Vancover and has decided to take Lukas for a while.

"Hello Coqui!"

"Hi, mama. How's my little pojke?" I play with my hands and feel a tear start to run down my face.

"Having a blast with Stella and I. He's been taking a liking to Jazz music as well. I feel a musician is coming to this family." I smile and imagine him bouncing and about to music in my mother's condo she rented."How's auditioning going?"

"Terrible. So many men have come and none are right. I just wanna quit."

"Sweetie, though I don't particularly like the direction of this movie, I am confident that you will find the right man to lead you. This is gonna be big darling. Have some faith and patience. I'll bring Lukas back to you this weekend."

"Thanks Mama. Can I speak with him?"

"Of course. Lukas, Mommy's on the phone." I can hear him stumbily run across the floor and grab the phone.

"Mommy!"

"Hi baby! How are you?"

"Goo..." He hasn't mastered his words yet, but he's getting closer everyday. It crushes me that I'm not there with him.

"Good? Oh I love you so much."

"Luh oo mommy!"

"Give the phone back to Nuna baby. I'll see you later." He hands the phone to mom and runs back off to the distant background. My mom says something to Stella, then directs her attention to me. "We gotta work on his words, Mama. He misses letters and.."

"Honey, he's only two. Yer lucky he isn't spouting nonsense like Stella did."

"Did? She still does. Haha. I gotta go mama. I love you."

"I love you too baby. Good luck with finding a man!" Boy does that count in many areas of my life. I would've been with Jake if he didn't turn up gay. Like how don't you know when you kiss a woman multiple times. Jees, four dates with the guy and when we're about to have sex, he comes out! Seriously? Getting up, I guess I should go great this last guy. I pull on my Sperry's and grab a light jean jacket before leaving my trailer and heading into the small set that we are temporarily using as the hotel room, since we're still working on getting an actual hotel. When I get in, there seems to be hundreds of people that weren't there for the last few readings. Jees, people have to move. Sam is facing me, talking through some things with a guy whose back is to me. From behind, he seems tall, muscular based on his black tee shirt revealing his biceps and toned back muscles. His ass in the jeans he's wearing is by far the best I've seen all day. His hair is a dark coppery brown color and he has stubble on his face from the view I have.