Till the end

Bad days

(Pablo's pov)

It was another crappy monday without Amelia by my side. It's been a whole month since she's been in a coma. I don't know how long I could wait. I just want all of this to be a dream. A dream where I could wake up and everything was fine. But no I guess it can't.

I told her parents three weeks ago and they took it rough. I mean I would too there only child is in a coma because of me. And I hate myself for it. Right now there heading back to Portugal because they used vacation time to visit. Before they left that thanked me for staying with her and being by her side. But they were wrong I wasn't by her side that day...

Two weeks after she was in the hospital the paparazzi caught me and started fake rumors. They all state im sick or my girlfriend is dying with some rare disease. But that's all fake and I won't address it because this is my business not theirs. But on top of that the whole Barca team knows. They've been supportive and have been visiting Amelia as well. The first week I skipped practice due to my 'metal state'. Well that's what Xavi said but I was fine I just need a distraction to get all of these events out of my head.

I've been working out early in the morning and getting more play time in games. Just what I needed a little push to make life a little less stressful. I've also been eating more healthier and been on a strict diet. Pedri says it's not healthy for me to be doing all these things in one day , everyday but it helps me cope.

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As I walk into the training ground and into the locker room I see all the guys look at me and staring at me all weird.

"Um good morning why are all of you looking at me" I ask
"Dude I thought you were staying home because you know" balde says referring to the Amelia situation
"Bro I'm not depressed or going trough anything I'm fine dam quit asking" I say leaving them shocked
"Dude I think you should rest you look so tired" Joao says
"Yeah and you should probably eat" balde says
"I agr-" ferran says but I cut him off
"Will you guys stop treating me like I'm five I'm fine I dont know why you guys think I'm not f*cking fine now stop tell me what to do" I yell now leaving them all quiet
"Whatever dude we're just looking out for you" balde scoffs hitting my shoulder roughly on his way out with the rest of the guys following him out only leaving Pedri

"You going to tell me what right for me" I scoff
"Pablo you know I don't usually control you or your actions but your hurting your body and not taking care of yourself" he says
"Pedri I'm fine Yeah im hurting but I'm going trough it fine" I say placing my hands over my face
"Pablo I know you and you know me and you know you can tell me everything so what's really going trough your mind" he says placing his hand on my shoulder as my hands are still hiding my face
"Fine you really want to know what's wrong everything is wrong I wake up without Amelia and I can't help but replay that day over and over im the one to blame I should of never left her Pedri I should of never left her" I let out while tears stream down my face
"Gavi this isn't your fault okay your not to blame it was her ex not you okay stop letting this affect you she's going to wake up I promise you okay now you need to keep your mindset high and not do things to hurt yourself you need to eat better and keep yourself healthy okay I can't bare to see you this way" Pedri says passing me a shirt beside him to wipe my tears
"Thank you Pedri" I say quietly
"No need to thank me we all have bad days now cmon let's go you can't let the guys see you this way or else they'll make fun of you" he jokes
"Yeah yeah shut up I'll be out in a little bit" I laugh pushing him away
"Okay I'll see you out their" he winks heading out of the locker room

As he left me their with only me,myself, and my thoughts I couldn't help but feel a little relief. I'm glad to have a friend like Pedri. But I really do need to keep my head up. I know Amelia will wake up because she's strong. I just know it.

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(Amelia's pov)

As I open my eyes I see nothing but pitch black. I couldn't feel anything. I couldn't move. What happened and where was I? I thought.

Where's Pablo?

The last thing I remembered was nick saying something and then bam. I was stabbed. At that moment I couldn't feel anything my whole body felt numb. I think that's when I passed out. But then why am I here.

This place feels eerie and scary. Suddenly the room started to change. The room went from black to white and things started to appear on the floor. They looked like flowers blooming and trees also start to form.

What is happening? I keept telling myself. Did I die? Is this what heaven feels like? But I'm only 19 I still have my whole life ahead of me. All my hard work down the drain. No this can't be.

I then start to feel something. I could feel my body again. As I stop panicking I start to walk towards a stream. Maybe this stream will lead me somewhere.

As I walk towards the stream I see a girl. A girl that looks about my age. The girl is sat down just staring down fiddling with her fingers.

"Um hello" I say startling the girl
"Who are you" she panics
"Sorry I'm Amelia you" I ask
"I'm Isabel" she says hesitantly
"I don't really know why I'm here" I say sitting beside her
"I know why I'm here" she says softly
"Why... I mean I'm sorry you don't have to tell me if you want to" I say
"No your fine I'm here because I'm dying I have stage 4 cancer and won't make it but it's fine because  I still have a chance" she says making my smile fade
"Oh wow I'm sorry your going trough that I can't imagine going trough that"
"Thanks and I might actually live because my mom says Someone's given her money to pay for my kemo" the girl exclaims excitedly
"Well I'm happy for you" I smile
"Yeah but can I ask you a question" she says
"Yeah sure"
"Why are you here you look a little young to be here"she chuckles
"Oh well I don't really know to be honest and we look the same age don't you think" I laugh
"Nah I may look young but I'm 21" she laughs
"But nows not your time I'm only here because every night I wind up here but you look lost"
"I am I don't think I'm ready to die I mean I'm scared" I say bringing my knees to my chest
"Me to but you'll make it trust me you look like a strong girl"
"I'm really not I may act like it but I'm actually scared I just have trouble showing it" I say quietly
"Well don't be afraid to show your true emotions all will turn out fine trust me at first I was scared to I mean I was only fifteen when I found out I had cancer but look at me now I was supposed to die two years ago but I fought it because I'm not scared and you shouldn't either"
"Thank you , you sound just like my mom"
"Well your mother must be very wise" she jokes
"I wish I could See my parents and my boyfriend to tell them I'm okay" I sigh
"Oh you will" she smiles leaving me confused
"What do you mean" I say raising an eyebrow
"Your boyfriend is the one who payed for my medication I need to live silly and I will say he's a keeper" she winks
"Pablo did that" I say quietly
"Yes he's a kind man"
"Yeah he really is" I smile
"When he stops by to see you I'll make sure to tell him that your okay and slowly recovering" she says leaving me shocked
"Oh wow thank you Isabel I appreciate that" I say hugging her tightly
"Your welcome now I must go ill see you later"

With that the young girl slowly disappears leaving me alone. With my legs still crouched up to my chest I slowly take a deep breath and admire my surroundings. If what that girl said was true then I should be fine.

I hope to see Pablo again...

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Thank you so much for reading. There's a little glimpse of Amelia's pov. Maybe she'll live maybe she won't. Who knows I guess you'll find out next chapter 🙈. Have a great dayyy love you 🫶🏽.

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