I hope we meet in every universe.

winter formal and feelings

It was now Friday, also the day of winter formal. Me and Mel were going to match for the dance. But for school, we matched with our leather jackets, my black baggy pants, her black bootcut jeans, and a white long sleeve. I went to my bathroom to brush my teeth and put my hair in a bun. I walked downstairs and grabbed a water from the fridge. "Good morning mija. Excited for today?" My dad asked. "Good morning apa, yea im excited pero imma be tired haha" I replied. He shaked his head and laughed with me. I gave him a side hug and said bye as I walked outside. I was so nervous for the afternoon. Not just the dance itself, but telling her if she wanted to be my girlfriend. It felt like I was asking her to be my wife or something. Like a big event, and in my eyes it was. My "speech" was memorized, and I was mentally ready. I was just super nervous.

While walking to my 6th period, I heard Adrian calling out my name. "Alexa! Hold on bruh." He yelled and catched up to me. "Oh my bad." I replied. He had his schedule changed because he wanted to have the same classes as Isa. He didnt get lucky though and I sadly had him for my sixth period. "Im so mad I wanted just one class with her. I was telling Juan about it." Adrian told me. "Bro what are you talking about lmao." I replied and started laughing. "Nevermind nevermind haha. Anyways I heard you asked out Melanie. I was thinking about asking Isabel but im scared you know?" He told me. "Omg tell her trust, she likes you just tell her." I answered him. He nodded his head and said," Maybe I should get her a ramo?" "Oh yea you should she likes ramos a lot. Get her purple and white roses, those are her favorite colors." I told him. "Alright alright thank you." He said. I felt bad for Ale though since she didnt have a date, her boyfriend goes to another school and only sees her during the weekends.

When I walked Mel home after school, I couldnt stop thinking about the dance. Everything about it and if she would reject me. What if she wasnt ready for a relationship like that? And what if afterwards we would stop talking since I made it awkward? It was so nauseating. I couldnt eat dinner at my house because of it. Shit I couldnt even concentrate on anything. When I was trying to do my homework, I just stared at my desk instead. This girl has me going crazy, but im in so deep for her. I was already going to sleep too, but I stared at my ceiling. "omfg" I thought to myself. I just couldnt. So instead of trying to fall asleep,I was up all night texting Isa and Ale. We had made a group chat to talk about planning and helping me ask out Mel. I told them how nervous I was about all of this, and how I couldnt even do anything but think about what she would say. Ive had crushes and talking stages with girls before, but nothing like this. I wasnt touchy, I never had nicknames for them, I never wanted to see them all the time, but for Mel it was so different. The opposite of all of this. I even did it with her. It was during the moment, I didn't care. I just wanted her with me. She makes me feel thinks ive never felt for anyone. It's genuinely crazy how quickly someone can make you so down bad. I always want to see her as well. Its like I cant go a day without her. How she holds my hand and how soft her hands are. How she gets flustered when I call her nicknames. I wonder who made her feel like she couldnt recieve any sort of affection. I really hope she says yes.